silent_tears starjewel Silent tears slide down my cheeks Silent tears Cause I am weak. Silent tears You thought I was strong Silent tears Cause you were wrong Silent tears Fall slowly down Silent tears Cause you're not around Silent tears When I'm all alone Silent tears Casue you continue your roam Silent tears I dreamed of you Silent tears Cause of things you do Silent tears You make me cry Silent tears Cause... I don't know why. Silent tears are over now Silent tears Cause you dry them somehow Silent tears You'll never see Silent tears Cause they're just for me Silent tears That only I know Silent tears Cause I'll never let go Of these Silent Tears 031223 ... whisper_to_the_moon I'm so scared..... help me...... i don't know what to do...... I know what my problem is...... I keep everything bottled up inside, and whenever something happens, It doesn't phase me..... until night. Night is when i start to think. Thinking is VERY bad. Don't ever try it. I think about all the things that happened, and all the emotion I kept inside has to be released....... through all the tears. But my brother sleeps in my room, and he could wake up if i just started sobbing.......... so i've learned through the months how to cry silently. It hurts so much.... and my stomach churns, but i have to do it. I have to do it. Sometimes I can't keep things inside of me during the day...... so i need to cry. But i couldn't cry in front of everyone..... then they would know what i really think about, and what really is wrong with me. So through the months, I have learned to cry dryly. It hurts even worse than silently, because I have to stay silent, and i can't turn out the lights or curl up in the corner of my closet. My throat gets a huge lump in it, and sometimes i can't breathe for a while- that really hurts. I cover my strained expression with my long hair.... only used as a mask to hide me. 040627 ... f bye 040628 ... lacunas coil write, whisper to the moon, write. go for walks after dark if you can. find a place and call it your own. divest yourself into your surroundings, and let the tears loose their silence. 040629 ... f it is so beautiful to be able to do all that on your own. i know what life can offer you now, i seen the deepedst highs and the darkest lows, in all this i discover the extremes and finally accept that everything is always changing. 040805 ... lucky All the words that you say to me. Cause me to cry... silent_tears... forever tears 040805 ... f If you want what visible reality can give, you're an employee. If you want the unseen world, you're not living your truth. Both wishes are foolish, but you'll be forgiven for forgetting that what you really want is love's confusing joy. Gamble everything for love, if you are a true human being. If not, leave this gathering. Half-heartedness doesn't reach into majesty. tou set out to find God, but then you keep stopping for long periods at mean-spirited roadhouses In a boat down a fast running creek, it feels like trees on the bank are rushing by. What seems to be changing around us is rather the speed of our craft leaving this world. 040908 what's it to you? who go blather from