self_education unhinged has been more valuable than all the curriculum my parents, i ever paid for 171114 ... unhinged rediscovering my love of the library in a liberal city, i am finding amazing brain food juan felipe herrera - zapatera_negra 171116 ... unhinged damnit zapantera_negra 171116 ... unhinged college destroyed my love of reading for awhile. this passage hit me right in the head: 'i loved college, and i hated college, because for the first time in my life, my reading was being organized in some external way. i was supposed to read THESE books now. it created a procrastination and an unwillingness about reading in me, and i experience the same thing now. if i've got to read a book for a purpose, i start to read other sub-books around it almost out of rebellion, and those sub-books often are the most wild ones. i'd sooner read the books i found on a table on avenue a last night than the latest thing everyone else is reading. ...i need to read perversely. reading is a space that is absolutely mine, that always was mine, and i'm always reclaiming it. as writers, we just need so much time to lie around, and waste time, and dream, and just be private, and flow. you can't tell me what to think. you can't tell me what to look at. you can't tell me what to know. i always like reclaiming that perverse pleasure - even reclaiming it from myself. when i was a kid growing up in catholic school, it was one kind of thing that i was sneaking under my desk. and now, when i'm supposed to be come kind of literary queer, i still want to read something else. as soon as i know who i am, i don't want to be that person, you know? part of it is the constant destruction and construction of the self. the texts aren't changing but we are - and i think that changing lens is that thing that i'm alive in.' - eileen myles 171126 ... macquaria That's a great quote. How true it is! 171127 ... unhinged her book inferno is also full of great quotes 171127 ... unhinged ivet was more valuable to me as a performer and songwriter than a performance degree browsing the new nonfiction at the centr al library and the online catalogue for books by people i watch give speeches and interviews on youtube is teaching me more than any syllabus i have come to resent the information that is forced on me 171127 ... f I begin to think that if you think out of the box the self education will only set you alone. If you're ok with being alone and possibly unemployed subsequently then it will probably be ok for you. There seem to be very few professions where it's fine to do this and you succeed in paying for your living through this type of freedom. You'll definitely at some point however want to feel understood by someone to relive the aloneness. There are people like that in the world and they manage to find a few similar to themselves. Not to say they don't get on with people, it's just that they want that little but more from the everyday person. I myself can't be bothered with spending time with people that want to tell you everything they are happy with about themselves, it's as though I asked them to tell me. 171127 ... unhinged i have intimidated others with my intelligence and love of learning my whole life. i could give a damn what others think of what i am teaching myself. i support myself with my college education and i need much less than the average american to be happy in a materialistic sense. i feed my brain with reckless abandon. i don't want anyone in my life that can't handle that 171127 what's it to you? who go blather from