i_want_to_talk_to_someone nemo right now. 040324 ... sameolme I talk, and type, are you ok? 040324 ... nomme hello nemo 040324 ... nemo im fine, just bored... ive been sober for a while, and the thoughts are flowing 040324 ... sameolme its late, I got worried, I'm going to bed, good night 040324 ... nemo alone again.. goodnight 040324 ... nomme hey hey hey :) 040324 ... whitechocolatewalrus i don't want to talk to_anyone ever again. i don't want to talk to myself i don't want to talk at all ever but here_i_am talking away to no one at all. 040324 ... ethereal Except to everyone. Because try as we may, us blatherskites, we still_care. 040324 ... nemo i had so much on my mind the other night.. i still do, and it sucks because theres no one around that i trust enough to open up to enough to say any of it... so much to say, but who would sit long enough to listen? 040324 ... saddened pobody aw,i'd listen nemo,but i have an early job interview tomorrow,so i must get going. =( *hugs* and walrus,i hope you feel better too. I really believe that people do care here. *hugs you too* 040324 ... ethereal you know what's weird nemo? I was lying in bed last night thinking about my friend who wanted to kill himself. Then I started thinking about Billy and then I totally started thinking about you. And what it would be like to talk to you. 040324 ... phil "i don't want to talk to myself" agreed. 040324 ... nemo i never thought anyone read about my billy... i just keep writing, hoping it will get to him, or some one.. hoping it will make me feel better some day. oh im drunk and im about to cry. 040325 ... nemo so... i work alot, two jobs, you know. most of the time its 11am - 10pm, but you know, you can always call me. leave a message, and i'll call you back. 314.757.6267 (st louis) sometimes i need some one to talk with, maybe someday you'll need some one too. 040325 ... strawberryxgash nemo. I don't know you, but are you alright? 040325 ... mon dear nemo, i read you peace, . 040325 ... kamiwhodoesntmatter i wish someone was waiting for me somewhere. as it stands, talking will suffice surrealsultaness on AIM, if you want me godammit woman - if you don't 040325 ... nemo im fine. its all okay. it just hurts. you know.. when you feel like you can just curl into a ball, arms around legs, neck arched across knees, hands over feet.. falling and turning, engulfing every single sign of strength and hope... holding yourself so tight you cant concentrate enough to cry anymore? do you know? 040325 ... ethereal kind of like trying to fit yourself into the mold that you think you've got? But it's never quite small enough? And then forgetting to breathe, that's my favorite. I don't remember how to cry. Regardless I con't think I'll ever be able to concentrate enough. I read about Billy everytime you wrote about him. And I went through tons of your stuff. Not blather stalk, because that's scary, but it was a huge magnet. believe_in_miracles2000@hotmail.com (msn) Expressionary (yahoo) 040325 ... sahba right now it would be nice but goddamit no fucking person i can trust im talking to someone and telling myself what the fuck are you doing 040325 ... sahba basically trust no one but you cant help it you have to talk its human nature lets hope no one breaks trust 040325 ... nemo i trust everyone until they give me a reason not to... which sometimes gets me in trouble 040327 ... i have a problem sometimes i just have to give stuff away it bears down too hard after awhile and i throw it out there because what else is there to do 040327 ... Jess Well, you can always talk to me! I'm not good on advice though, can I interest you in a witty kwip!? 040712 what's it to you? who go blather from