my_friends_funeral
kinkazoid i had this friend who i hung out with almost everyday in the summer. he had the flu for a long time, and the doctor finally took him off his medication cuz he was supposedly getting better. his mom took him and his little sister to disney world like a week later. he died in the hotel room in his sleep the night they went to disney world. he died from the flu, thats the only thing the doctor told us. people dont die from the flu anymore damnit. at his funeral his hot uncle who is 19 was sitting on the couch, i went over to him to say hi and noticed that he was crying, he gave me a big hug and didnt say anything. it was the saddest thing i've ever seen, i've never seen a grown man cry before. i went to see the coffin and inside the boy wasnt wearing a tux, he was a skater so he was wearing baggy jeans and a hoddie, he had his skate board next to him. it was cute but his face was the sickest thing i've seen in a long time and i keept having flash backs of my dads funeral. i was only 3 and i didnt remember i saw him untill i saw my friends face. half of my dads face was fake due to the fact that he shot off half of his face. but anyways...the boys lips were like sucktion cupped to his face or something and his ears were purple and his eye lids looked like they were caving in it was sick. 010611
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Persona I went to a friends' funeral..she was one of the sweetest people I had ever met...it was my turn to walk up to the coffin and sprinkle down my handful of tobacco onto the lid. Her brothers and friends were around me and crying...a woman behind me..her aunt, I think, couldn't handle her grief, and collapsed...dying before the paramedics could save her, meters from Maeann's coffin. I looked up at the sky, the unhappy clouds..then I left to return to school. I found my best friend and sat down beside her, trying to explain how hard that funeral had been....she turned to me and said "then why did you bother going? You know funerals aren't exactly happy".......I went home 010612
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people just don't get it
they don't understand.
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Casey I had two of my school mates die exactly one month apart. The first one I didn't go, because I didn't know her that well. She died of an anyrism(spelling) She went to my church, was in band, she was in sports, but she never talked to me, everyone cried for her. They planeted a tree. School almost stopped for 2 days

The second one I knew. He was always nice to me. He liked Pink Floyed too. (He died when he fell asleep driving. He was burnt alive) No tree was planted for him. He wasn't involved in sports. No school stoped for him. We disected frogs the day after his death. The fuckin bio teacher and the rest of my class couldn't understand why I got sick and went to the bathroom to throw up.

Fuck my school and all those cocks. My stomach hurts
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