make_up_your_mind blown cherry I thought you hated me. I could live with that. At least it was clear. At least I knew it was all over. I'd lost you completely, but I never really had you in the first place. So that little_lego_man was for me then? You are over being mad at me? Why message me otherwise? Can't you just go back to hating me please? I thought I had it figured out when you hated me. It gave me a reason to forget you. But now... And you're not even just messaging me for a fuck. Hard to supply when you're in Melbourne and I'm in Sydney. You're not that well equipped. Why do this to me? Fuck, and I thought I was confused before. 020226 ... blown cherry Okay. Violent crying episode over now. Wow, do you have any idea how often I have said the word 'episode' today? Are you trying to be my friend? I just wish I understood. "I could be anything but your friend" I think I've established that I could be your enemy (see icq kidney remark), and equally, that i can be your lover. But I can't be in between. I don't know if that will stand forever, but it stands 12ft hight in a solid flat sheet of 3ft thick iron right now. Surely you have other people you could message at two in the morning form Melbourne? Surely not every single one of your friends is down there with you already asleep? Surely you'll get tired of me calling you surely and will want me to call you by your name again. You're not going to love me, and I don't know how else to make you hate me other than raping your mind, which didn't have the lasting effects I expeced. It's even harder to make you hate me when I have to do everything I can to make you happy and not annoy you with my petty obsession. If I stalked you good and proper maybe that would work. But I'm not going though am I. Two choices: Love me or Hate me Just don't try to be my friend, not yet anyway. 020226 ... blown cherry maybe soon. 020310 ... blown cherry everything is so grey right now, but I don't think it's a partcularly bad shade of grey. 020516 ... :_) should you be a good or bad girl :_) ? 040201 ... hsg1437 The Toadies Possum kingdom Make up your mind Decide to walk with me Around the lake tonight Around the lake tonight By my side By my side I'm not gonna lie I'll not be a gentleman Behind the boathouse I'll show you my dark secret I'm not gonna lie I want you for mine My blushing bride My flesh and blood My lover, be my lover, yeah Don't be afraid I didn't mean to scare you So help me Jesus I can promise you You'll stay as beautiful With dark hair And soft skin...forever Forever Make up your mind Make up your mind And I'll promise you [ these lyrics found on http://www.completealbumlyrics.com ] I will treat you well My sweet angel So help me Jesus (hey, hey, hey) Give it up to me Give it up to me Do you want to be My angel? So help me! Be my angel Be my angel Be my angel Do you wanna die? I promise you I will treat you well My sweet angel So help me Jesus Jesus Jesus Jesus... 070313 ... sameolme I'll put that on a list right after making up my bed. But 1st I'll have to start a list. So many things to make up. It would take some sort of imagination to make up a mind. Anybody who knew me would know it's not a real mind anyway. How about I just make up the difference tommarow? 070313 ... sameolme hows about tommorow? 070313 ... sameolme and tomorrow 070313 ... icle and tomorrow ? 070313 what's it to you? who go blather from