nothing_but_sunshine unhinged now when my mother died i had to take it in stride there ain't no room for pride in watching your father cry and dad made it until maybe a year later when they found his suicide inside of a grain elevator got over it i had no other offers or options thought about whether or not mom and pop was watching never bothered with caution no time for fear saw my folks carry fear for most my early years and i learned from it turned numb and ignored the storm a burning sun waiting for the world to plummet finished growing_up under my uncle's roof taught me how to count all the way up to 100 proof from watching him i learned how to gather nourishment living off the different women that he had to nurture him and on the surface i became a normal preteen more afraid of nuclear war than stay bites and beestings my best friend was my tv gameshows and cartoons substituted for puppies rainbows and balloons now here i am the shy type and i think i'm doing alright considering what it was like living my life it's all sunshine it's nothing but sunshine (10x) now it's been seventeen summers since i've seen my mother but every night i see her smile inside my dreams when i was younger i didn't actually see the accident happen but every night i see her smile as it shatters against her screams i can only imagine dad's internal reaction strength infernal burning bound in his brain what's it take to make a man that owns acres of land abandon the family plan and drown himself in his grains? i'm glad i left that farm in northern minnesota where the time moves slower and the winters are colder became a city boy where everybody acts like they older where they stick to themselves and keep a chip on they shoulder 26 years of age no longer full of rage i think it's safe to say i've turned the page on my childhood days yo look ma i'm a productive member of society when i'm drunk i make noise but otherwise i live quietly and on the weekend i go back up north to reminisce remember what it was like pretending to be a kid late at night i walk the fields and lurk in the shadows getting even with life by murdering cattle (creepy interlude) i've got sunshine on a cloudy day when it's cold outside i've got the month of may (creepy laughing) it's all sunshine it's nothing but sunshine (10x) and i'm gonna be alright and you gonna be alright you aint gotta hold my hand just walk with me tonight (10x layered over 1st chorus, then separate) seriously, i love slug. urban_bodhisattva 100912 ... unhinged oops; insufficient credit .... atmosphere , the_lucy_ford_eps 100912 ... three words burned_into_memory nothing_but_sunshine breakthrough 110614 what's it to you? who go blather from