i'm_not_excited_about_music_anymore Twitch It's rare that I really want to write a song anymore... Come to think about it, it's rare that I get excited about anything now... 051025 ... andru235 STOP TAKING ZOLOFT. - and - it seems that for many musicians, there is the necessary roller coaster of periods spent loving and adoring music with all of ones soul, interspaced with days, weeks, months or even years of apathy or even antipathy towards the muse. for some, this process is a part of what generates the passion for music in the first place. there are reasons not to cure depression, anxiety, obsession, ADHD, etc. but do not expect the current state of our "leaders" and "experts" to ever acknowledge such. such experts are rare, indeed. i would be pissed if someone went back in time and treated beethoven's obsessive depression or mozart's ADHD. 051026 ... andru235 wait. maybe you already stopped taking it. anyway, i found my musical skills severely dampered by apathy when i was on SSRIs at various junctures. so i jumped, jumped, jumped to a conclusion. perhaps you really don't like music. but i doubt that's true, i think you love music. since you are able to make music on your own (as evidenced at myspace) why quit? it's not like music hinders you, does it? 051026 ... Twitch I think I need to learn to play it for my own enjoyment...Not for others'. but it's hard, I've always been the entertainer...It's my role. 051026 ... andru235 why not cultivate both? you're obviously more than capable of creating harmonious music. also, always remember that there are some jerks in the musical world who will take you down simply to be jerks. if you like what you play, who cares what they think. what you think about yourself as a musician is critical. what others think is trivial. 051026 ... Twitch Andru235 You rock... I bet your an awesome person. Thanks 051027 ... Twitch I think a big part of my problem is that I had been comparing everything I do to The_Beatles. I recenttly started liking the melodies of System_of_a_Down. And though I know that the most profound music critic wouldn't even think to mention these bands in the same sentence... Well...I don't care. I like what I like. 051128 ... Twitch I got a bit of a cold... But I think I'd like to play an open mic or something during this break...that could be nice. 051221 ... unhinged i think if you mixed the_beatles and system of a down rock would be taking a step in the right direction fuck the violin; fuck the classical music world. i want to be a studio musician for rock bands. i've been hating my violin for months now. music school burned me the fuck out. i still need to practice to meet the minimum standard of proficiency to be a studio musician but i've come to find that the spirit of music is easier to find in the rock community than it is in the classical one. screw the classical technicians. i'm definitely not excited about that. i need an extended break. it took me six months to admit to myself that my feelings have changed. it's hard to change your mind when you were at one time so certain. (part of my decision is because of a bad shoulder injury but that's besides the point) i'm more rock 'n' roll than i ever was a classical snob. anyone know any labels looking for violinists? 051221 ... Twitch shit...i'd love to jam with a violinist... Anyone near NJ? 051222 ... Twitch alright...I think I've been making my goals too large. I need to take smaller steps... Let's forget about "making_it" for now. My short term goal can be getting a band together. and I don't feel that I should focus on that all at once either. For now, I can just make it a goal to post at some local sites that work on getting bands together... That's all I need to do today, post on a few local sites. 060102 what's it to you? who go blather from