my_first_blackout birdmad circa 1989 oh, the days of valium. the one thing that ever allowed me the freedom of consciousness without conscious recollection 021011 ... kss boones farm wine, 1983. I guess I did a lot of funny thing, don't remember them. I ended up great friends with a local college radio DJ that did my favorite punk show. He said I called him about 25 times, and because it was a small scene I met him in person not much later. That led me to becoming a DJ, which I did for about 5 years, and it changed my musical life, and maybe everything else for that matter. 021011 ... call_me_lydea Was in the second grade. I was flipping on these bars and the next thing I know I am on a couch with blood running from my nose. that was only the first time... 021012 ... screwing for virginity i was in the shower. i felt dizzy and light headed, so i grabbed the soap dish imbedded in the wall for balance. i saw the whiteness start to creep in, so i turned off the water. next thing i know, im wrapped up in the shower curtain between the toilet and the shower with a hurt leg. my mom said she heard something big fall in the bathroom, shouted "is everything ok" i didnt say anything, so she went back to bed. 021013 ... p2 i've blacked out before? i don't seem to remember it how odd... 021014 ... voodoo my boyfriend and i were dropping a friend off at home after partying. when i got out of the front seat to let her out, i got dizzy, but thought it was just from the buzz i had. the next thing i know, i'm on all fours in her driveway, puking like there's no tomorrow. i woke up puking. weird. while it was happening, i thought i was still at the party we just left. everyone there was hunched around me, asking if i was ok. since i thought i was at the party still, i yelled at them to leave me alone. then i finally realized where i was. i got back into the truck, and looked in the mirror. i guess i landed on my head because i had a huge bleeding bump on my forehead. not pretty. that was about five years ago and i still have a scar. 030910 ... melted plastic i've never blacked out. been fucked out of my head, but somehow still "there". maybe i'm immune to the departure of consciousness, outside of sleep, concussion or the influence of anaesthesia. 030910 ... nocturnal ah, I'll never forget it...oh, wait. 030911 ... x exactly. fuck if i know. 030912 ... god i did a bunch of shit, then i don't member nuthin. they tell me i attacked the potato chips and made out with tracey. i ended up w/ a black eye. oh how i miss being ripped. 041027 ... thieums I remember arriving home on my moped, putting it in the garage, and entering the living room. Then suddenly I woke up. I was face down in blood at a crossroad, with a broken arm and the strap of my helmet almost choking me. I had been ran over by a car. What scared me is that during all the time I was unconscious I actually continued to live my life just as if nothing happened... 130326 what's it to you? who go blather from