but_i'm_a_cheerleader p2 "my mom got married in pants" 051005 ... unhinged it seems like a long time ago now. longer than the number of years that have actually gone by. she wouldn't even hug me as i cried. the movie was sad to me but that wasn't why i was really crying. what a bad day. funny how the people you love never want you for what you are, always asking you to change. i wasn't willing to babysit him so he didn't want me anymore after he got what he needed out of me. she claimed she wanted something like me, but somehow i myself wasn't good enough. what a horrible day. the beginning of the end as_it_were . and we sat in the basement of kilcawley house watching this movie. how far apart can our atoms be from each other with our hands holding you think i abandoned you i spent years bleeding but you needed closure (my gaping wounds had finally scabbed over) walking across the bridge in harrisburg you reached out to me and still i couldn't say no but i felt my fingers closing around yours with the need to choke in your hotel room you needed a hug 'i'm glad we did this' 'yeah me too' now i finally know just how much of me you killed all those years ago 051005 ... nom) i_used_to_soar 051005 ... unhinged . i stay away from women now keep the crushes in_the_box tarnished where i hardly ever go rah rah rah you can do it score! i believe in you more than i believe in myself (but i'll keep a tiny bit i know no one else will give it to me) 200410 ... epitome of incomprehensibility Another of those movies I've heard of but never seen. Maybe it's like Edward Scissorhands and I'll be like, "This is cool, but I would've liked this better if I'd seen it when I was 15." Or maybe it would've scandalized me when I was 15? Then I want to watch it. 200415 ... unhinged it was more scandalous fifteen years ago...when you think about gay rights and being openly gay (or not) back then it adds a different dimension i was struggling with my sexuality when i watched that movie in part because of the person i watched it with so at the time it peeled back part of my head 200416 ... unhinged and from what i can tell the newest generation of teenagers is way more accepting of openly experimenting and accepting homosexual relationships. i think to current high schoolers this movie would seem quaint, like a relic 200416 ... e_o_i Oh yeah, it definitely would've scandalized me when I was 15. I should see it. :) Realizing I was bisexual was the smaller existential_crisis compared to the fear of living forever. It wasn't like I was going to have a boyfriend, let alone a girlfriend, at that age. Still. 200516 ... u24 "This is cool, but I would've liked this better if when I was 15." I feel like that about some books, too. 200517 ... u24 It's why I've never re-read Sophies World. I just don't think it'd hit the same. 200517 what's it to you? who go blather from