as_it_were
enon
or
as
it
was
.
rather
.
god
damn
it
.
i
had
written
it
to
you
.
so
much
...but
now
its
gone
in
the
poof
of
the
blather
game
.
ill
write
it
again
.
sometime
when
i
feel
passionate
about
it
.
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...
Clay
a
few
months
ago
I
had
a
bit
of
freedom
to
spend
time
with
my
family
rather
than
strangers
at
a
restaraunt.
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...
rubydee
i
felt
stongly
about
becoming
your
friend
030604
...
unhinged
the
endless
cycles
of
chaos
and
order
follow
each
other
and
i
hate
it
but
i'm
sure
that
even
in
a
new
place
everything
will
end
up
as
it
were
i'm
scared
i'm
so
fucking
frightened
and
i
know
that
since
i
am
the
one
that
picks
up
no
one
is
ever
around
to
pick
me
up
i
understand
you
have
better
things
to
do
it's
nothing
new
to
me
even
when
it
appeared
that
things
had
changed
they
were
always
still
the
same
he
got
everything
he
needed
out
of
me
but
maybe
that
isn't
fair
of
me
for
a
few
months
i
didn't
feel
like
this
at
least
*shrugs*
back
to
the
way
things
as
it
were
where
i
lay
alone
crying
with
no
one
to
call
and
pretty
soon
i
won't
even
be
surrounded
by
people
i
know
strangers
one
and
all
while
all
those
people
that
said
they
cared
said
they
would
come
to
visit
said
i
could
call
whenever
i
needed
it
end
up
drifting
away
as
it
were
alone_and_unsure
030604
...
unhinged
heretofore
nevertheless
things
such
as
this
therefore
and
such
as
it
were
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what's it to you?
who
go
blather
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