i'm_a_loser Ariadani I'm A Loser I'm a loser. i'm a loser. and i'm not what i appear to be. of all the love i have won or have lost, there is one love i should never have crossed she was a girl in a million my friend, i should have known she would win in the end. i'm a loser, and i lost someone who is near to me, i'm a loser, and i'm not what i appear to be. although i laugh and i act like a clown, beneath this mask i am wearing a frown my tears are falling like rain from the sky, is it for her or myself that i cry? i'm a loser, and i lost someone who is near to me, i'm a loser, and im not what i appear to be. what have i done to deserve such a fate? i realize i have left it too late. and so its true pride comes before a fall, i'm telling you so that you dont loose all. i'm a loser, and i lost someone who is near to me, i'm a loser, and i'm not what i appear to be. 020528 ... anne-girl being a loser kind of sucks and i really am, i know the warning signs it's when people talk to me because they see how pathetic i am and try to cheer me up, or make you feel like i have friends and when i complain about being a loser so i can get these same people's attention and when i have nil social skills, and consider having a regular conversation an achievement and afraid of offending everyone and read others' words filled with brightness and normalcy with hope that i could be like that some day, or search for people as or more loserish than me, so i'll feel less pathetic or at least find some kind of sick self-affirmation in knowing that there are people worse off and watch 12-year-old kids who are more sparkly and outgoing and mature than me, and are much more put together so i hide in a room listening to sad or sappy or angry music and trying to mind-meld with my computer and blathering and hoping that maybe something will change soon... and running away from sympathy because they're all the enemy... people who care are to be feared, but even when i think i'm happy i seem to send out this vibe which makes people either ignore or be extra nice to me and everybody else goes places and does things and have hobbies and lives and things that they do besides school and computering... and i feel like there's something fundamentally wrong with me or something, even though there really isn't... i'm not really all that special or strange, just kind of a loser but that's alright, because life is cool yay! 041218 ... pSyche yea. don't you see the L on my head? It's ok. my an my loser friends, we get along all right. Yea. I'm an idiot a nerd a geek a misfit in your happy crowd but that's ok. Me and my friends, we'll be the freak show- together. So I'm a loser. That's ok. When I'm feeling it, I have my support. I don't know if you and your barbiemodelfriends have those ties. 041220 ... Mister Brightside soy_un_perdedor 041221 ... Mzyxptlk You're never a loser to a true friend. And once you find that out, your life will shine upon you like never before. Let it. 060628 ... Roaul Duke im a loser to most peoples standards. financially im in a tight spot, I have a low paying job. Im not in school. At least i dont stay with my parents, but thats probably because they arent around. 060628 what's it to you? who go blather from