blathes_that_paint_my_picture endless desire it's come to my attention that ive strayed away from my originaln intention on blather ive filled it with so much nonsense and while, every single blathe paints a picture of me it seems the poems and other topics do a more complete job. i could only find sad ones. . . maybe those ones just stick out more. into_another_nightmare i_want_to_make_you_proud 154_messages hopelessness suicide i_will_not_Cry_in_school drain all_i_do_is_cry_anyways i_discovered_the_meaning_of_everything alone_in_the_crowd she_dreamed_of_fingerpainting now_let_me_fall donteatdonteatdonteat but_all_the_usual_things_leave_me_distant push_through_his_chest punishing_myself tangible_lifedoesn't_she_look_vulnerable harbor trapped_inside_words no_one_but_herself be_a_good_girl my_bulimic_state_of_mind suddenly my_clever_shower_experimentsummer_rain collide_if_you_wish_but_there_is_no_escape innocent_gaze please_get_these_thoughts_out_of_my_head look_at_me_kill_what_is_beautiful sometimes_she self_mutilationpour_me_out these_words_consume_her under_my_nails i_wanna_feel_you_breathe_me ran_away_with_the_spoon ignorance_is_bliss yellow_hills my_head_above_water i_could_wake_up_screaming_sometimes iamworthlessiamsofuckingworthless we_open_the_doors_of_our_hearts emptiness_inside lose_lose a_smile_to_sustain_me and_then_the_music_skips let_me_puke_my_heart_out running_from_the_world the_music_in_everything frozen_smile and_as_the_hours_pass lost_highway la give_and_die never_look_down the_girl_on_the_bag_from_the_store i_scream_aloud bulimic_procedure worthless death box book it bulimia scrub personality_disorder_test the_retarded_girl_swears sleep_my_troubles_away add your blathes and paint your picture. oh and don't forget the other world. www.blather.newdream.net/red/ it's simple and quiet. i think it's beautiful 031209 ... eraser my mistakes: my_clever_shower_experiment summer_rain tangible_life doesn't_she_look_vulnerable self_mutilation pour_me_out 031209 ... zeke you are transected by your poetic choice subject becomes object and we see you as what you say we hear your voice as the wind which comes in the only open window in this retorical wall 031209 ... marked . 031209 ... u24 I've found that, too, endless desire. 031209 ... u24 my picture? A 20ft square canvas, a mushy browny kind of colour, with splashes of other colours mixed in, not in a pretty way, more like a multiple paintpot explosion. There are the occasional sketches and doodles, and even a few pictures that aren't half bad mixed in to the collage, but you could stare for hours and still just see a mush of indescript blurry swirls. 040402 ... shilohlives my picture in both Blue and Red is dissapointingly sad... My life is not as depressing as it reads to be. Unfortunately my worse moments tend to stick out. 040402 ... mon uow each and every word reveals something 050223 ... z and something hides each and every word 050324 ... z word fog hanging between i and else 050419 ... meta meta 051213 ... doar fuck i missed this one/ 060706 ... z start it back up. that is one of the great things about blather. no conversation is ever over. 060707 ... z ever 071025 ... Doar Still miss you Dez.... Hope you are Okay and Well in spirit and mind. . 101002 ... sda sda 101005 ... Doar i_would_like one_good_turn when_we_are_both_cats oh_god_i'm_nucking_futs to_those_i_adore bad_things_i_have_done each_blather you_make_my_heart_beat_faster dear_jane do_we_have_a_reason and_all_my_weak_words are vast_and_small i_try_to_atone for villians_in_disguise but i'm_not_allright if_i_could_only_meet_one_blatherskite it would let_this_love speak more_poems_for_you the_air_i_breath when you_kissed_my_lips i_must_confess_sorrow seeing her as_she_collides there_will_be_a_transference when love_names_itself . 111015 what's it to you? who go blather from