but_all_the_usual_things_leave_me_distant endless desire dust- flowers- and all the usual things. and i shall wear the green sweater and sit in a wooden chair drinking mint tea from my chipped mug. music- windows- and all the usual things. and i shall dance with my fingers and sit very balanced humming to the soft tune in my mind. haze- screams- and all the usual things. and i shall sway my silhouette and study the shadow forming against my white curtain. 031011 ... endless desire this is how i feel. oh beautiful blather. never fade. if you are alive than i am also. please sustain me. i am alone. yet so surrounded. 031011 ... realistic optimist *mwah!* 031011 ... sans nom i am caught between frames blinding light bursts see_through walls no exit sign stopped watch 031011 ... Death of a Rose You are note alone! 031012 ... ferret when even blather leaves me feeling cold and empty. i fucking need you. but of just FUCK IT (as i scream at the top of my lungs) i just wanna fuck it all away 031012 what's it to you? who go blather from