sirflaccid
Lilac Mr. Limp,

(in reference to your comments on the i_want page and everything I know you think about)


Time is something you have and the only thing you need. Live today and don't always worry about tomorrow because after all today is just the tomorrow you worried about yesterday.
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sirflaccid I heard one time that time is a lot like money. You get twenty four dollars everyday. The deal is you can't take it into tomorrow. If you want to use those twenty four dollars they must be spent today.

My problem is worrying about how to spend it.

Do I go to "Long John Silvers" for that moment of gratification. That way if I do not recieve the money I need for tommorrow I will have used today's to be happy.

-OR-

Do I find a way to spend the money I have today so that tommorrow's could be a little bit happier and a little bit more comfortable. Because if everyday guarantees a happier tommorrow then look at what life could be.

This will keep me constantly confused.
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Lilac why dont you just get rid of the money all together and be happy with what you have. 030122
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sirflaccid So I am supposed to give up my time. I don't think that is possible. You are forced to spend it even if you are sleeping it is being spent. You have to no one gives you that choice. The only way to give it up is to give up. And as of right now it isn't bad enough to give up. There is still that hope of knowing that knowing that tommorrow I will be rich again. 030125
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Lilac its never bad enough to give up 030126
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Lilac My dearest sirflaccid,

in response to the blather_confessional

It would be different for you if you were the one that actually lost your own body to something trying and later failing to become life.

It's hard to give up your body which is no longer your body but a vessel tending to someone else. Thinking about the fact that thereís something inside you feeding off of you and your supposed to tend to it.

It's even harder to loose something that you were working so hard to provide for even if it was only for a short period of time.

By the time I came to grips with the fact that I was pregnant I enjoyed it. I was going to be a mother. I was doing everything I could to make sure it was healthy and always knew what to expect next with the pregnancy. I was also happy because there was no doubt in my mind that everything would be alright and work out.

I was asked how you took the miscarrige and all I could say was he was happy.



I guess it was just no matter how much you were or weren't involved, you couldn't feel what I felt, you couldn't experience what I experienced. No matter what I was completely alone.
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Freak....Lilac....whatever you want to call me although its not like I haven't felt alone before. 030318
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Freak Sometimes I feel I've got to
Run away I've got to
Get away
From the pain that you drive into the heart of me
The love we share
Seems to go nowhere
And I've lost my light
For I toss and turn I can't sleep at night

Once I ran to you
Now I'll run from you
This tainted love you've given
I gave you all that I could give you
Take my tears and that's not nearly all
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What's_the_'Point?

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