i_wish_i_could_scroll_with_my_mind Jenna this was the thought I just had. Because my shoulders hurt. Damn I'm lazy. :) 011231 ... Mahayana: Zakah: why not use the: down arrow? [less shoulder action, might alleviate your pains] [[sheesh jenna your falling apart, no wonder why one of your 'resolutions' wont come true]] [[[invest in super glue, & lots of it, & if you do, i see one of your resolutions coming ... well... together]]] ehhhh heee heeee [head, shoulders, knees, and elbows] 011231 ... Jenna You have to imagine me blathing_in_bed. My futon's on the floor. I'm laided out, my laptop on the floor at the foot of the bed, typing while propped up on my elbows for hours on end. I'm falling apart emotionally, not physically. But you have to admit that it *would be cool* if you could scroll with your mind. ;) 011231 ... Mahayana: Zakah: emotionally= Y? [scrolling with your mind, would be hell 4 me] [[seizers anyone?]] [[[although, if we were being purely technical... if i was scrolling with *your* mind ... who knows where that would lead]]] [*writing note to self*, remember to someday, invent that dream recorder, friend inserting, do-dab-do-hicky ... thing-a-mah-jiggy, you were going to invent to be able to upload your friends into ur dreams] [[imagine if that was some sort of an electronic/entertainment device, could you imagine the things you could: experience.do.share be.see.feel.say.become 011231 ... Jenna My friends never appeared in my dreams until about a year ago, when my two best friends turned up in one, and we were getting tattoos, except in the art room at my high school, blacklit. And that wasn't even one of my weird dreams. I tend to think my friends would get scared by my dreams. Falling apart? Lonely. Sad. Aimless. I haven't talked to either of those two best friends in a couple of weeks and I need them more than anyone. It's kinda sad how much I need to see them and talk to them and hug them. I'm terribly needy. I make them sound like the root of the problem though, which they're not. Not at all. I love them. I'm just fat and poor and maybe ugly. And oh yeah: I whine a lot. 011231 ... Mahayana: Zakah: blacklits ... do a certain something to the chemistry of me within ... so intangilble ... so surreal ... so indescribable... it almost seems completely unreal [e.e.la.la.la. & on & on & on] [[orbital- halcyon & on & on]] i always dream.of.any & everything. out of anyone i know, i have the most phunked up dreams, hence forth, the reason Y, dream recorders would be an *a* choice invention esp. for those whom enjoy mind fuck dreams Falling apart? [just trace the pieces with your fingertips & youll always find your way home] Lonely. [sing 2 her & you may someday welcome & look forward to her] Sad. [the grand phoeniX, rebirth renewal, rebirth renewal, rising phoeniX reminding us of hope & inspiration ... through the ashy ashes of hope & longing ...for the time when you shall once again know joy] Aimless. [2 not have an aim is apart of the cycle, it is far more sqaurely dire to have a target & 2 refuse 2 take sight & behold] [[if you talk 2 them, even though they will not be able to hear you in audible words, they shall feel what you speak- this is true]] [[[i think it is beautiful]]] [[[if you think you are needy, which is all relative towards choice of vocabulary, than all you need 2 do is hope.wait.find someone ...[if you have not already] who is more like myself someone whom needs.wants.desires to be needed, someone who radiates when they...love.care.support.secure. & are encouraging others]]] [you are alive, rich, and beautiful] [[its whinning 2 those who do not want to be bothered with emotions & eXpressions, to those whom truly care it is eXpressing, sharing, & releasing ... never whinning]] 011231 what's it to you? who go blather from