faith_in_difficult_times perfeclty_chaotic Today someone told me that I am an inspiration to them. That they could never go through what I am and stay sober. That it is incredible that I am trying to find a way to accept the difficult situation I have put myself in. I've been so stuck in my own head that I did not even realize that my actions could possibly be inspiring others. It is also weird that this tragedy I have created for myself is, at times, softening my heart. Yesterday, I was sitting there and my cat, who is often sweet to the point of irritation, came up to me. At that moment it dawned on me that if I goto prison on Friday that I may not ever see her again because she is about 7 years old already. It was really sad, but at the same time I cherised giving her attention more than I ever have before. When I was able to get out of my own dilemma of hope and fear today I felt closer to some people I know than I ever have before. It may be the last time I see them for some time and possibly ever again. They showed more love towards me than I thought was possible. There were tender moments which left me filled with a sad sense of joy. There is reason to have faith in the seemingly most difficult of times. 110911 ... unhinged bodhichitta i don't think my words are appropriate but i will be thinking of you this friday p_c last Thursday at meditation group we were talking about the percentage of people that need to meditate in order for society to be enlightened and a young social work student brought up how human beings mirror each_other . The leader of the group picked that up and ran with it, but i think that its true also. the people around you reflect what you put into the world. you've been working really hard to make your life better and the people around you feel that and are inspired. trite as it may seem dear, no matter what, keep going on this path. no matter where you find yourself, be a light, a bridge, a raft. oh_blather so much synchronicity so annoying to type only with thumbs without faith i wouldn't be able to do this right now have picked up my life and put it back down here unhinged_in_seattle groundlessness no matter what the breath goes in the breath goes out no matter what the universe is the river i float my raft in 110911 ... thy perfectly_chaotic, not only can you be inspiring, you are inspiring, and youll go on being inspiring, because these things travel. i wish i had more / better words for you. i enjoy your words. i will be chanting for you, and for the best possible outcome for you. thy 110914 ... perfectly_chaotic I appreciate the willingness to send good energy. I had a meeting with my attorney earlier. Originally I was supposed to plea on Friday and, thanks to a new law, would have been taken into custody until my sentencing hearing in November. Now I shall both plea and be sentenced on November 16th. As scary as the experience has been it has helped me to change my perception in ways I would not likely have otherwise. 110914 what's it to you? who go blather from