darkest_hour atrium i got in my car to leave school and the thought hit me again "I miss my mom". why? i wondered, why does that that keep popping into my head lately where it never existed before? then it occurred to me, a monotone voice that came from somewhere dark in my mind: she's the only one who always loves you and is always there for you and i cried 040331 ... soulesswanderer that's not true. Mothers don't always love their children. Ask mine. 040331 ... unhinged anything i wrote here between about september '02 and this time last year ... i'll_love_you_forever you stupid fuck 040331 ... x i was speaking of my mother. i made no generalizations. so pretty much, fuck off. 040401 ... pete this day shines so bright, the sun is full and the sky is blue. we pass the trees on the edge of the canal, and cross the locks to the other side. here among the articial nature of the arbitarium this is our darkest hour words pass, we hardly meet eachothers eyes and the world, to us, halts and waits to see what happens this is our darkest hour. the sun touches its pinnacle, and the snow is making the world bright and white. we know that we have come together only to part alone this is our darkest hour. will you hug me once more? can we follow the trails we once thought? no. i didn't think so. this is our darkest hour. i leave, walk north, following Dow's Lake around, taking the long way home. frozen tears stain my face, this is our darkest hour. you turn and cross the locks, the way we came, alone and apart from each other now. this is our darkest hour. 040401 ... soulesswanderer if that fuck off was for me.. I'm sorry.. i was just saying.. 040402 ... x you were just saying that what i said, about my mother, was not true, because you were not paying attention. believe me, i get it. do you? 040402 ... soulesswanderer i wasn't saying that. I said not all mothers love their children. I'm sure your mother loves you.. just.. some don't. 040402 ... x "that's not true" a direct quote just admit that you were wrong and move on 040402 ... soulesswanderer Another direct quote: "she's the only one who always loves you and is always there for you" If you just wanted that to be about yourself, you should have written, "she's the only one who always loves me and is always there for me." However, you're the one that wrote "you" Meaning the person reading. I'm not wrong here. 040403 ... x uh actually no. i said that was the thought in my head. those are the words that went through my head. i was quoting what i said to myself. 040403 ... soulesswanderer but if you didnt mean it that way, then I suppose I apologize. But, you didn't have to get all pissy, you know. You could have just said thats not the way you ment it. you didn't have to tell me to fuck off. so, here's my formal apology. I'm sorry that i misinterpratated you're blathe, and sorrier that i commented on it. 040403 ... angry beaver chill out x if you meant it to be just about you then you could have said you both interpreted the topic in your own way there's no need to stress out 040403 ... x i did say, actually. and as i tell the kids "take care of your own problems" 040403 ... unhinged actually it was september '01 it seems like so long ago, but so close at the same time. i was listening to tool on the bus this morning; that_reminds_me . 'if i'm the man then you're the man as well and you can point that fucking finger up your ass' 040408 what's it to you? who go blather from