christmas_eve jennifer we close the show I hope jer and ceeg are ok jer's been online all night long dave flys away to phoenix and debi has to go home for the week it looks like my life might pause until the new year I think that's ok maybe it will give me a chance to understand everything I don't know, between the show and the plane, where the consolation will come in maybe he forgot I want to act like he did and have him remind me then I will know he wants it not that I want to give it to him oh, *sigh* I don't know exactly what to do this happens every time we close the show 001224 ... stupidpunkgirl christmas eve is my half birthday i get more excited about that then christmas itself and i don't care that it's my half birthday i hate the holidays commercialized until they have no meaning when i go to work there are so many customers who are mean and in a hurry i go home and cry even if i don't celebrate christmas most of the world does, so it still affects me it will be over soon so much anticipation for just one day 001224 ... twiggie i used to spend every christmas eve with kelly. her parents would have a party for all of their friends. and it was the only time i enjoyed christmas for what it's suppost to be. it was so different from what i did when i was little. we'd always go to my grandparents house and do all of these traditional things and pray to something i've never really believed in and open piles of presents, usually things that no one needs. and it was just like a ritual, every year, the same thing. i don't even want any presents this year. i just want to have a lot of people over tonight and drink coffee and talk and listen to music and go sledding down my driveway and do stupid fun things. except that's not even going to happen. 001224 ... stupidpunkgirl coffee? your house or mine? but i'm bringing my music 001224 ... uh huh we dont give presents in my family. we usually go to church, then go out for dinner or sumthing. i think thats cool. none of my friends get it. all they want are their pressies. 021207 ... bored blah bleh ugh ug 021224 ... jane i was toeing the presents this morning, to see how many my dad sent here with my brother, & is it immature of me to be a little angry that my brother evidently got more from my father? after all these years, he's still playing favorites 041224 ... missionary It's true that Christmas has become over- commercialized, and the meaning has been watered down over the years. But it's also true that the world is what we make it. Instead of complaining about Christmas and protesting by inaction and non-participation, I'm going to buck_the_system. I wonder how much I can give this year without spending a single dollar. It truly is better to give than to recieve. Giving is the_ultimate_win_win_situation. By giving without spending, it forces commercialism out and seals the true heart and spirit of Christmas in. I'll start right now! A_gift_to_you_my_fellow_blatherskites 041224 ... missionary Hooray! 041224 ... monee i haven't bought anything for anyone 041224 ... monee i haven't made anything either 041224 ... nighean_siofra and i still love you 041224 ... jamseesmaj nomme_de_plume you made me an email (and a new name) :) 041224 ... monee ;) 041224 ... Death of a Rose :) smile widely my kinsmen and kinswomen, because I shall smile for you all tonight. 041224 what's it to you? who go blather from