i'll_hide_in_my_own_two_shoes trixie Smile babe, it's life it's show biz kid biz I think I'd rather die than spend the time working on my resume and smiling for you jerks But If I see you I'll run Never happened Wasn't me i came from cali went around got a gig here I am That's the story nothing else not you, for sure and not a pair or little heals and purple eye shadow and not 107 pounds and not a thong not a tounge never cheap no not me i've trained man i've worked I didn't live in my life or smile in my face all for you and all for this It ain't gonna happen Too fat Too ugly Too stupid Too smart Too me Too now Too wrong You fucked me because you couldn't hire me Haha, that's all it is Why would you screw with potential? Potential is money. Shit is a good fuck none the less, and what's 20 bucks on drinks and an hour on ego? A fuck is a fuck. Now, maybe my head is swimming in wine and stories and humilliation and awe but i know what i know and you know a lot too and you wouldn't have hurt someone that was going to work. I know they'll all say you're better don't buy in but this was the test and i know now that I'm still here because no one sees me as anything other than a shit to jerk around and get money from because i have naive and gullible stamped on my ass. why did this have to happen? I'm losing my gem every second and i wont be creative for much longer goodbye self goodbye gift it's just not wanted im sorry i lead you on this doesn't happen to good people those people go home and go to sleep and are not robbed and are not used and wake up the next day and smile and know i dont know ive never known i could only hope but there are a million other me's and well im sick of it i just am this can't happen too young too good it's too much i just wanted to be able to dance and make people laugh and have a really good time thats it i really swear no money i dont care i dont id give it all away to people who really need it because they cant do what they want i just want to make people laugh and laugh with them and make them happy and feel for once and have a really good time i dont want to be a star stars fall and get burned i want to just do that just be good it's all i wanted thats it and i dont know why this happened i thought if i was good and had good intentions good things would happen it's not harmless fun to me it's not fun it can't be fun to me i like friends and im worth it but you dont care i made you laugh but i dont know you were laughing at me a joke in heels thats not it not to me i can't a simply cannot i know i'm throwing years away and tears and missed dances and friends and lives but ill miss more of myself if i gain you and let you become me. 030918 ... trixie and it all went down before 9 030918 ... Cornerstone . 040715 ... nom) but i'll shake myself out so i don't bite myself 051008 what's it to you? who go blather from