come_to_me Shades come to me, with your thoughts and desire, come to me with your hate blazing blue and red. but just come to me, i will sit here, waiting for you. . 111024 ... Shades come to me, with your thoughts and desire, come to me with your hate blazing blue and red. but just come to me, i will sit here, waiting for you. . 111024 ... In_Bloom I think I'm a cruel sort of pearl. Like a pearl I can begin as a seed of hope, passion... trust. More and more I wrap you around me, bathe me in you, so loved and so safe, just glowing and new! Like the pearl I can shed you away from me, be worn away in degrees and layers after just one too many deceptions, humiliations and ugly words. Why can't you just add me to your cache of treasures instead of worrying me in your hands to test my resilience then acting disappointed I finally show dull? 111024 ... Continuous I am sated when you are before me, i don't know why but i am. my being fills and all the nourishment is mine when you are near. you fill me and yet you hate me and i will never know why..how can one soul be and another follow? i am done pc, mre and ib.......i've annouced myself, abandoned myself, abased myself.....i am done....i have swords and shards worthy of my love....why? 111024 ... Backwards you have never been the small pearl, some say to forgoe your shine, a layer of you. . 111024 ... Doar I can't.. 111024 ... In_Bloom I once shared with someone that the extent of my bravery in love was to show my throat and watch to see if they could pass up trying to cut it. Memories of losts. 111024 ... Death of a Rose Each and every day I will cast my fingers into this blue, hoping to watch a pearl shine upon my lips. Each and every day. . 111024 ... Chaos here then cut my fingers off, let me be silent. leave me without your throat, a wound, a past misery, that i would gently wrap in my own cloth. i do not know how to stop scaling this wall, even though you have the arrows to pierce my flesh....i will not stop... 111024 ... heartfeltsuperego I have been clawing through the walls trying to get to you. Ineffective so it is. I am weak and almost done despairing. Given up, weak and powerless. Crying for you, longing, mourning, desire devouring me, corroding. I can't have you. A lifetime of longing is a stunted existence my love. 111025 ... Easily the reaction, a studied reaction, you don't know love, it has escaped you time and time again, despite all the hard words and hateful worship. nothing. i know love, but have never shared it, so i attack from a different angle, despite the hard words, and love worship. nothing. 111027 ... heartfeltsuperego I want him to know. He is exquisite. What a prize, this young man. His is wild and untamed, snarling sexual power. Seductively and intimidatingly so, he arouses and quells. He commands when he casts his spells. He brought me to my knees. Every day I fight the relentless urge that shames me to my core: I want you gently and intensely to touch me across the ether. my desire drips sweetly under clear night's sky the moon is high the moon is you the moon casts a spell and I am eager to be spellbound staring at a rock in the sky can you feel me? of course not. my thoughts float atop I want you, I don't want to stop. "shame is the shadow of love... " - PJ Harvey 111030 ... D ty 111030 ... D ty 111030 ... D if you cut your fingers off, it might make a sacrifice of the sword. but it wouldn't make a desert of a pairing. Even though appendages lost, I would be by you. Telling you of my love for you. But not even that would begin to tell you that all you would let lost, my love for you would be a gaze upon the stars, forever. so still come to me. let your heartfelt confusion, be clear. you and i will dance upon spiders and glass. . 111118 what's it to you? who go blather from