biological_father lost i found out yesterday that my biological father died. I am adopted and hadnt seen him since i was about 9 years old. apparently he was very wealthy and lived on a 35 foot long islander sailboat which i am inheriting. actually i am inheriting all of his belongings and money. Also my biological uncles are both millionaires and live in Bel Aire ( a very rich neighborhood here in cali, widely known for being the place where the fresh prince was set in) they are going to pay for my college when i go. My biological grandmother died in august i found that out yesterday too. 020131 ... Mahayana perhaps it is not appropriate considering your biological father wasnt in your life or you were not in his ... however the case may be... i am sincerely sorry for your loss, but mostly i am deeply sorry for his loss... he lost out on you all those years & that was his world greatest mistake [in my opnion] he may have been wealthy but in my eyes he was truly poor, for he lacked the most precious gift bestowed upon him i am also equally sorry for your grandmothers passing away as well ... my condolences are offered to you for various reasons. [i am pleased you- yourself are still with us- please take care and many blessings to you, your family, friends and loved ones] 020131 ... lost i know my post sounds greedy and selfish but thats how i get when shit happens. i get greedy and cover my own ass. I unattach myself from people around me so that i cant get hurt anymore. when all i really want is for them to be as close as possible. the only person i havent been able to push away is my girlfriend and thats because she just doesnt let me. which i am very glad she doesnt. 020131 ... Mahayana your post was anything 'but'greedy and selfish [i saw it as a sincere expression] [expressions conjole us into ponderment] [& i enjoy a minds musical musings] [so i thank you] 020131 ... ofsuch I wonder if he didn't die like I was told. I wonder if he is still there, somewhere with another entire family. he must have had family members. I wonder what they are like, or where they live. I'm sure I will never ever know, so I guess all I can do is wonder. 110414 ... unhinged (one day not long ago i got a text from my brother: 'omg. today is the worst day ever. i hate myself' my brother isn't self_indulgent like me. for him to say/text 'i hate myself' i knew something was definitely wrong. when pressed on the issue, he told me he found out he has a 4 year old daughter. i still haven't pressed him much about it, she's 'stupid cute' and lives in another country with her grandparents. my ex has a kid he very rarely gets to see thanks to his own bad choices and physical distance, but the happiest i ever saw him was right after he got to spend time with his son. i've watched men in my life be regulated to the role of biological father. i've heard and seen the regret, self_hatred , and absolute and unremitting pride at the being they created. it's a weird coin to see the other side of. (grew up in a pretty damn traditional family aside from the half_sisters) 110414 ... unhinged (i miss you harlan. hope you are well) 110414 what's it to you? who go blather from