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Ouroboros His perfectionism reminds me of who i used to wish to become, what i am glad to not be now, and all my insecurities and self-doubt at who i am, my intelligence, and my self worth. when i'm with him i feel unintelligent, uneducated, and useless. i feel like a burnt-out shadow of my original potential. 060508
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Ouroboros I will never be good enough.
His very existence negates my own.
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Ouroboros Stupid internet social sites 080401
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Ouroboros stupid me for even thinking this way.

I hate that he is here, in this same city of lost angels, living out his life that i wish could be my own- but he never did drugs, he never strayed from his truth, he mastered his body, he mastered his mind, he traveled, he created, he found love, and he will keep on going up and up. and i am all the opposite/flip side/down side
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