losing_touch_with_who_i_am Freak....Lilac....whatever you want to call me I took a personality test today. When I first read the results I was pissed off that it was the total opposite of what I was. I thought it was horribly wrong. It made me think of how other people might describe me or how I come across to them. Maybe the test was right and I just didn't realize it. 030318 ... bethany because all i can think about is life with him i csnt get by the week to the weekend and surely thats not who i am 030318 ... p2 because at some point between then and now i stopped caring 030319 ... eklektic because it's the end of the year. and everyone will be gone next year. and i'll be a senior. and my class is less than wonderful. and i'll be forgotten by those few people by whom i want to be remembered. 030319 ... cube Not too surprising that you'd be pissed off at your personality test. They_say that those personality traits that most annoy us in others are reflections of ourselves... ³ 030319 ... bethany im a better person now i leave the house i'm perceived as an adult i think new car alone i dont know if he can be there when i need him to be i'm defintely different sure wouldnt drive to maryland anymore he was there when i came back i dont know if he can be there hwen i go there again 040131 ... bethany wow i should have read this sooner i'm realising i wasnt who i am my skin makes me cry its not mine i dont want it and he helped me helped me be depressed and i'm not depressed anymore i want to be in touch whith who i am and i'm not me when i'm with him sad that i took a 2 year vacation with him to not me land 050514 ... falling_alone its the curly hair. the solution for the perm seeping into my brain. 050515 ... dondeestanlosjaguares it's not that I have forgotten, it's more like I keep being reminded I am soon to move to a place, where I will find myself, I know it, because I can feel it, it calls to me. . . I will answer 050515 ... thieums Life gets easier When we forget who we are 080518 ... kung fu why do you think they invented plastic surgery? 080518 ... Syrope "and you are losing me, effortlessly" i used to think the painting was about how little effort he made to avoid losing her, to keep her from floating away. now i'm leaning more towards "how little effort he made to lose her" because if you care about someone, it's very hard to lose them. so if he didn't have to put in much effort to lose her, that just means that he didn't care about her in the first place. i've decided i don't care very much for this "who i am" lady. so it's ok, really. we can both flip her the bird and move on. nobody liked her anyway. even as awful as my life is right now, i feel like today was pretty damned near perfect. 080518 ... mishmosh caught up in the hustle and bustle too much drama trying to follow the crowd pretending to be someone you're not you must breakaway and fly in your own direction 111129 ... unhinged unhinged_in_seattle is a bonafide disaster 111129 ... thy try to keep looking_on_the_bright_side, and dont stop hoping_for_the_best. 111130 what's it to you? who go blather from