anxiety_without_purpose Smedley Gershwinkle Help Help Help Help Help Help Help Help Help Help Help Help Help Help Help. 040108 ... t These three words pretty much sum up my entire existence. 040109 ... x sounds familiar to me also 040109 ... misstree i know the feeling of cats, wide-eyed and darting, in constant startle. alone in a house, there are still a hundred things yelling just out of range. my heart hammers in flight response, but there's nothing to run from. the low keening of things trapped is the only thing in my throat. i'm endlessly falling, scrabbling for any scrap of strength but there's nothing, nothing but the startling void, nothing but my anxietey, a sea of it, all of it sharp without cutting, the moment before the blow falls extended forever. and not a thing to grasp, no point of exit. all i want is some way to fix it, and all i can do is wait for it to pass. 050112 ... unhinged breathe in through your nose out through your mouth in out nose mouth or you can stick your head between your legs (as you breath in, let your rib cage expand rather than your stomach sucking in) deep_breaths 050913 ... Piso Mojado subconscious 050913 ... misstree i just gave the breath advice to a friend yesterday, as it had been passed on to me by realistic_optimist at a needed time... and haven't even been following it meself... but the stress has been to big and bad and bloody to properly be called anxiety, it induces more stares than pants... and it too shall pass... 050914 ... unhinged tonglen breath + positive visualization eats up anxiety more quickly than i could have hoped for especially when you are in the middle of it; i hadn't seen her or spoken to her for years because she made me ill. as we drove to dinner in separate cars, i did a few short minutes of tonglen and felt everything bad that had been building up inside me melt away. of course, visualization only works if you believe it. 050914 ... Light All consuming, sleeplessness, insomnia, solitude, desperation, night terrors, panic, shakes, over analyse, broken, cracked, must escape… the_fear Fear of something that seems so irrational, even thinking it through logically is of little consolation. This may help in the short term: 1. Scrawl everything onto paper. 2. This helps. 3. DO NOT re-read. 4. Burn the fucker. 5. Play RPGs – Assume another role/part/life. 6. Seek medical/professional assistance. It starts as a little inkling, something_is_not_as_it_should_be feeling in the back of your head. It swells up, filling you to breaking point; anxiety oozes from orifices, in sweat, tears, unsettling jeers until eventually you can take no more. There is nothing left to take. It enters consciousness without asking and will leave only when it has taken your last desperate outburst. It cannot feed on emptiness. Fight or flight? Exhaustion knows little of either of these things. 080709 ... Light All consuming, sleeplessness, insomnia, solitude, desperation, night terrors, panic, shakes, over analyse, broken, cracked, must escape… the_fear Fear of something that seems so irrational, even thinking it through logically is of little consolation. This may help in the short term: 1. Scrawl everything onto paper. 2. This helps. 3. DO NOT re-read. 4. Burn the fucker. 5. Play RPGs – Assume another role/part/life. 6. Seek medical/professional assistance. It starts as a little inkling, something_is_not_as_it_should_be feeling in the back of your head. It swells up, filling you to breaking point; anxiety oozes from orifices, in sweat, tears, unsettling jeers until eventually you can take no more. There is nothing left to take. It enters consciousness without asking and will leave only when it has taken your last desperate outburst. It cannot feed on emptiness. Fight or flight? Exhaustion knows little of either of these things. 080709 ... unhinged thank you life thank you genetics shamatha 130909 what's it to you? who go blather from