oregon unhinged you know i hate you if he is back she hasn't heard from him but he didn't want to tell me he was leaving he wanted to spare me writing another sloppy stupid poem about him thinking that not saying anything at all not telling me makes me feel better when i find out that he got on an airplane and isn't coming back 020130 ... melinoma i love you 020611 ... kerry too much rain... i like rain but this is overkill. and it fuzzes out your face while i am in the car waiting for them to return listening to elvis costello and praying you won't get into another fight. hypochondriac, narcissist, fundamentalist christian. your beliefs are bullshit. nothing is ever your fault always someone elses why do you keep those girls under your watchful eye? they'll never have what they deserve if you don't stop playing mind games. 020611 ... share dfgs 020627 ... paste! my future home in roughly 2 weeks. i'm exhilarated is an understatement. 020627 ... realistic optimist my mecca realized, the secret mecca of so many with whom i talk. the rain is not so much rain as it is mist, and everyone here seems to have a cause, even if they don't seem to be too hip on manifesting it. for some reason, no one uses a turn signal... the music scene here is great, and the tittie bar scene even better. unfortunately the street kid crackrock/heroin scene is a bit much for me to handle sometimes, but i just move on. The footbag scene is top notch, and the poet/open mike scene is also good. there is every type of geological feature except tundra (and who needs that) there's a winter you can be outside in shorts during, and a summer which people come from all around to experience here. all in all, it's a pretty wonderful place. 030831 ... misstree *drool* damn you. 030831 ... garycooper it snowed for the first time as we got in the car and headed downtown to get you. of course, the train was late and we were thirsty, so we went to a chinese resteraunt and sat at the bar. I proceeded to unkowingly order the worst hot toddie i have ever tasted. The snow had taken over the town, i remember it had been trecherous going over the bridge to the station. After a few more bars and hours, you finally came in on the train. It was cold; i had missed you, and your cheeks turned rosey in the winter air, so I threw a snowball at you; then you told me you would be leaving to move to new york. I put my arm around you and we went home. I think, if I remember correctly, I didn't look at you for the rest of the night, and tried to convince myself that I was proud of you, and able to understand. 041215 ... my name it means nothing next_stop 090914 what's it to you? who go blather from