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Alexander Beetle I'm too old.
I'm too happy.
I'm nowhere near cynical enough.
What the fuck am I doing here?
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florescent light cause you're welcome.

I'm always out of place.

I never fit in.

I guess I don't have a winning personality.

I do have beginers luck though.
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nocturnal I could have just taken that wrong, but it sounded to me like Alex was saying we're just a bunch of cynical, whiny kids. otay, that may be somewhat accurate at times, but we all have our moments. we can be happy too ya know. 010503
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silentbob do you ever feel like you don't belong with us?
Like you aren't holding your weight in a conversation?
Like you just shouldn't be there
well open your eyes
that's the way it is
we are the elite and you should not bother us any longer
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Alexander Beetle An elite blatherer? How the hell do you measure something like that?
Don't take things so serious, friend.
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bijou save_me 010920
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monadh wakened from sleep 010921
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birdmad wherever_i_go 010922
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Effingham Fish Until the day I die. 011130
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silentbob out_of_mind 011130
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unhinged like two wise men have already stated today

"all things must pass away"
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~gez~ i seem out of place
in this place

unwanted
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Toxic_Kisses Blather how I've missed you, every day I'm not here feels like an eturnity, their truly isnít a day that goes by that your not on my mind, and yet now that I've come back to you and look around I suddenly feel so out of place, granted I never really "belonged" or had a place to begin w/ when here yet some how I feel you've forgotten me and that in fact you never even noticed I was gone bc you've replaced me w/ all these other new ppl and I can't help wondering even if I thrashed about and screamed relentlessly @ the top of my lungs if you would even nod my way to acknowledge that I've returned 021111
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blather nod

we knew you were gone,
you were missed
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Toxic_Kisses *HUGZZZZZZZZZZZZ* You make me so happy!! ^.^
Ok I'll not take up any more of ur time *merrily skips off*
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gja in no place 071107
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ZERO does it ever frustrate you that people don't understand? i always feel like nobody understands me. judjements are subjective, maybe it is not necessary to be understood. Maybe talking to yourself is the closest you can get to feeling whole? 071108
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. It can be frustrating indeed. Of course, I've had to learn to try and communicate with other people in THEIR language - I can't expect them to speak mine! (By this I mean "personal" - not "linguistic" - language.)

Ultimately, it seems to come down to two viewpoints: 1) Only the individual can ever truly understand itself, and 2) Only someone external can ever truly understand the individual.

I'm definitely in that first camp.

But I also know it is delusional on my part to speak in my own unique lingo and expect to be understood, or even welcomed. People don't have the time, patience, or energy to spend on trying to decipher me, and it's unrealistic for me to expect that they would.

Soul_mates aside, of course. :)
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pete wandering in the dimlight of night,
between the homes of the old gods
of the methodists
and baptists
and anglicans
and united churchmen
and, not least, the curlers.
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