innerviews_unhinged_hospital
frAnk
why
were
you
in
the
hospital
during
your
last
days
in
youngstown
?
030603
...
unhinged
i
guess
it
was
the
culmination
of
four
years
of
drama
and
i
guess
i
have
had
untreated
anxiety
problems
for
years
...i
had
a
really
bad
anxiety
attack
.
the
night
that
it
happened
one
of
my
friends
mysteriously
disappeared
and
the
only
information
i
would
get
out
of
anyone
was
'
he
is
ok
...he
just
needs
to
go
away
for
awhile
.
he'll
be
back
in
a
week
or
two
.' fortunately,
i
wasn't
under
the
influence
of
any
of
the
usual
substances
i
consume
.
i
was
driving
from
a
suburb
of
youngstown
back
to
my
dorm
and
i
started
to
have
these
weird
shooting
chest
pains
and
i
couldn't
breathe
very
well
.
eventually
,
my
friend
that
was
driving
noticed
that
something
was
wrong
and
when
i
told
her
what
was
going
on
she
made
me
go
to
the
hospital
.
so
i
went
to
saint
elizabeth's
in
youngstown
and
told
them
that
i
was
having
chest
pains
and
whatnot
and
i
was
pretty
sure
it
was
anxiety
related
and
they
made
me
sit
in
the
waiting
room
at
3am
although
i
appeared
to
be
the
only
one
in
the
emergency
room
at
the
time
.
by
the
time
i
actually
saw
a
doctor
the
attack
had
pretty
much
passed
.
they
gave
me
a
chest
xray
and
an
ekg
to
make
sure
i
wasn't
having
a
heart
attack
and
they
came
back
normal
(
OF
COURSE
)
because
it
was
anxiety
related
and
then
the
doctor
perscribed
me
some
arthritis
medication
....i
have
no
fucking
clue
.
most
doctors
will
give
valium
or
something
along
those
lines
for
anxiety
but
that's
saint
e's
for
you
.
they
told
me
to
follow
up
with
a
family
type
doctor
so
i
went
to
the
campus
doctor
and
he
tried
to
put
me
on
zoloft
.
at
the
time
,
i
had
some
collanapin
that
a
friend
had
given
me
so
i
was
okay
because
of
him
.
not
because
of
any
medical
professionals
.
i
think
i
have
completely
lost
faith
in
doctors
.
yeah
,
i
made
the
mistake
of
telling
the
campus
doctor
how
i
had
come
across
some
collanapin
and
that
it
worked
.
so
i
understand
why
he
tried
to
perscribe
me
zoloft
but
i
do
have
a
right
to
refuse
that
kind
of
treatment
and
i
do
have
a
right
to
request
specific
treatment
.
but
i
guess
because
i'm
young
i
couldn't
possible
know
anything
about
medecine
even
though
my
dad
is
a
paramedic,
my
sister
is
a
nurse
and
many
of
my
parents'
friends
are
also
paramedics/nurses.
i
was
brought
up
to
suck
it
up
and
diagnose
myself
,
but
unfortunately
only
a
doctor
can
give
me
the
pills
i
need
to
feel
better
and
i
know
that
most
doctors
will
not
give
a
21
year
old
pills
like
that
if
they
are
asking
for
them
.
damn
them
.
damn
them
all
to
hell
.
030603
...
unhinged
the
doctor
gave
me
arthritis
medicine
instead
of
valium
because
he
thought
i
was
a
junkie
;
when
a
doctor
thinks
you
are
i
guess
you
probably
are
.
050815
...
daxle
I
wonder
what
you
think
of
all
this
now
.
081011
...
unhinged
i
dropped
out
of
grad_school
because
my
last
semester
i
was
having
panic
attacks
of
almost
equal
magnitude
just
walking
down
the
street
the
second
week
of
the
semester.
the
only
thing
that
made
me
feel
better
was
the
thought
of
not
being
in
school
.
then
about
six
months
later
i
discovered
yoga
.
i
learned
how
to
breathe
again
.
i
have
learned
how
to
manage
my
anxiety
without
fucking
zoloft
.
but
some
of
that
,
it
feels
like
a
life
ago
.
081012
...
hsg
inneresting.
i
just
learned
to
breathe
2
wks
ago
.
081013
...
unhinged
oxycodone
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081021
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