who_to_trust pushpins sooo I happened to tell my mom (when she got home from work, she works early) that I woke up to Ariel (the baby) crying in her crib at 8:30 (she usually wakes up around six or so) and she had been crying for quite some time (i was drifting in and out of sleep, assuming someone would get her). so finally i got up thinking "oh no! I must be babysitting today!" Of course I wasn't. her dad was at the computer ignoring her, so i took her out of her crib, changed her dirty diaper and put her in front of MARK (the dad). who acted suprised to see her awake. oh my god, what bullshit! what is his problem? he blames everything he can on me. so either he was just being an asshole again trying to make me wake up and take care of HIS daughter while he sits on his ass, or he was trying to just ignore his daughter til the last possible moment, and actually not want to get caught by me. Maybe he thought I was spending the night somewhere. But basically, it pissed me off. The baby doesn't deserve that, and he doesn't deserve my mom, and why the fuck does she put up with it? she is sadistic! what the fuck. they both need some fucking counseling since they won't break up (they fight once a month at the least and its a BIG fight. It always incorporates me; i however do nothing to provke it and i try to stay out of both of their lives while doing chores and watching the baby). and they drag me in, and its not fair. It is their fucking deal. and my mom likes dragging me in. and the only time she says she loves me is when her and Mark fight and I happen to say "i love you" to her after to try and make her feel better because i hate seeing her crying and acting like a little girl. im just trying to give her some fucking strength and dignity so I wont be so scared. so anyway she brought up to mark what I told her (how i woke up), and i heard him saying "thats fucking bullshit! shes a liar!" and point is; now he is going to be pissed at me for bein a tattle tale, and mom is dragging me into it and i know shes aware of it... what...the...fuck. so now mom is going to trust Marks story, and not mine, and all will be my fault to these big fucking babies. mom shouldnt have brought me into the world if she didnt know how to handle her own life. i cant trust anybody around here anymore. 020104 ... girl_jane certainly not him... 030909 ... oldephebe here's another ont oracular interposition from the land of the completely blistered and endlessly flailing tongue.. trust nothing but your own cynisism yep ... 030910 ... misstree a bit bitter today, glowing 'phebe? "trust thyself; every heart vibrates to that iron string" -emerson 030910 what's it to you? who go blather from