to_alex unhinged borders_of_compassion but maybe the reality is our differences are irreconcilable. for some reason i can't quite put my finger on, that hurts me more than i've allowed myself to be hurt in years heart_pang 140525 ... unhinged i still miss you i still want to smack you fuck_you_lucy 140602 ... unhinged ms meteor - eligh and amp live the tv show the bridge 140630 ... unhinged stop running - eligh and amp live 140630 ... unhinged its slowly going away, just like i knew it would. ive been reading a lot on impermanence, been contemplating my bodhisattva_vow all pain dissipates eventually in the process, my desire to be with you has also faded. its your choice to wake_up boo. pushing the snooze button just delays the inevitable 140703 ... unhinged i keep trying to move on. i keep having nothing to distract me from the fact that i didnt notice all the clouds when we were together. 140824 ... unhinged my anger is finally mostly burned off i still think of you i still miss you i still pray for you i hope someday you learn how to make yourself happy boo. theres no reason for you to be so tortured when you could light up someones world with that smile. 141018 ... unhinged last week, with my mother's mortality smacking me in the face, my heart cried out to you so loud i couldn't ignore it: 'alex' i still wish you well from the bottom of my heart 150118 ... unhinged "The problem with running away when a relationship becomes difficult is that we are also turning away from ourselves and our potential breakthroughs. Fleeing the raw, wounded places in ourselves because we don’t think we can handle them is a form of self-rejection and self-abandonment that turns our feeling body into an abandoned, haunted house. The more we flee our shadowy places, the more they fester in the dark and the more haunted this house becomes. And the more haunted it becomes, the more it terrifies us. This is a vicious circle that keeps us cut off from and afraid of ourselves. One of the scariest places we encounter in relationship is a deep inner sense of unlove, where we don’t know that we’re truly lovable just for being who we are, where we feel deficient and don’t know our value. This is the raw wound of the heart, where we’re disconnected from our true nature, our inner perfection. Naturally we want to do everything we can to avoid this place, fix it, or neutralize it, so we’ll never have to experience such pain again." i hope for the sake of your wife and your marriage you've stopped running away from things. you running away from me was what hurt me the most and not something i wanted to keep in my life by staying friends 160427 ... hfse You are a worthless criminal. I hope you go to prison where you are humiliated endlessly. 160525 ... () (unkind words. please take them elsewhere.) 160526 what's it to you? who go blather from