my_dream reitoei is that of a madman. so outrageous, so impossible, so evil, so logical. it will happen. i will never see it, how i wish i could. but it will happen. it is the inevitable product of natural laws. they will try to stop it, but eventually, by extermination or reluctant accpetance, it will happen. most will die, the rest immortal. or at least close enough. live for as long or as a little as you like. but soon evryone will be replaced. i wish i could abandon this mocking dying body, the petty details of the this hated world and the confines of my human rooted mind. i dream of life and death. not simple death, not mine or yours or a serial killer. but the death of something much more than you or i. but in the end it will be life. but i cant see it. but maybe ill figure out how to do part of it, and maybe ill change the world just a little bit and make my dream come true. 500 years, max. or maybe not. maybe we'll peak and crumble just before the critical point. but then it will still happen. a few thousand years and society has revived and then it will happen. i told someone once, they thought i was crazy. perhaps i am.this is born of my antisocial tendencies and hatred. but we can only achieve so much. and after that... 020330 ... She I had a really wierd dream last night, but I don't remmber much of it but it was wierd. Some one I was pretty close to was in some kind of horrific accident and I was totally traumatized. As I lay fetal on the ground bawling my eyes out, I found something (a cross between a tooth, a toothpick and a pebble) that would bring my friend back. Once I gave the "thing" to the Paramedics, a person showed up and drove me away. When I was around this person I felt so happy and complete and loved, that I even had the warm fuzzy feeling. The "I-want-to-spend-my-whole-life-with-you-and-never-want-for-anything-ever-again" feeling. We ended up where ever it was that this person was gonna take and it was this little old-fashioned ranch house. Inside was this persons sister and her infant son. By now this person has turned into a girl which was kinda creepy, and the last thing I remember was when it was time for th baby to go to sleep they just pit a plastic bag over his head. What do you make of that? 030427 ... ROFL Sounds Scarey! Now I will say something that will remain here forever and ever (unless of course the end of civilization comes or some rampaging virus anihilates every living thing on earth, or the human race decides it really doesn't like the internet and does away with all the servers......ROFL). My nightmare is just my eyes staring at vast plain of gray. I can't see my body or anything else. The gray continues on forever. I can't move. I can't scream. Just the endless gray while my mind implodes. 031007 ... someone you know okay yea i licked some pussy what's it to you????? 080329 ... aux Champs-lyses i licked pussy too, i don't know...nothing to moi unless you licked the same pussy... 080329 what's it to you? who go blather from