meaningless_sex Effingham Fish A moron among oxen. 020112 ... birdmad i take it then that you have never known true debauchery and envy you that fact 020112 ... ClairE sexless_meaning 020113 ... little wishes nothing wrong with it *crosses legs and sighs* 020118 ... *_the missing link_* sex_with_you_is_nothing_but_everything 020118 ... [remy] i can't go on like this. at first, i .. i thought i was dreaming. i'd admired him from a distance, totally enthralled just to exist within a mile of him. one night, he came to my room, and gently pulled my book from my hands. eventually, him not seeming to smile, my not seeming to be able to stop stuttering, we had sex. and somehow, i agreed for it to just be sex. i couldn't expect love. not from me. never could love someone like me. but i can't keep it up. the closest i've come to telling him is when i'm bowed over the toilet and throwing up my stomach and my heart. i met him in the hallway, and tentatively i got his attention. i stuttered. so much i wanted to say. that it made my heart ache to just be.. be.. sex. to not have a chance with his heart. instead, all i could say in an all-too calm voice, "i can't do this anymore." ohgod, i thought, please. please, don't turn away, don't accept it, please, just tell me not to go and i'll never ask anything from you, never get in your way, but please don't turn away. he said, in a perfectly calm and level voice, "all right." ... my heart ripped from my chest, and was just as quickly replaced with a hollow little gem. i couldn't breathe. ... i nodded. he went back to walking down the hallway, and i went mine. the other way, down the hallway. 020118 ... Norm Hi, I'm the plumber, someone called about some pipes that need cleaning. ba ba bow ba ba bow 020118 ... Syrope it does exist. but i know the difference in meaningless and meaningful, and i keep them apart 020628 ... jane it used to be possible in my head, bu now it's just an oxymoron 020629 ... freakizh for the sake of lust. "we're too good at it.. we owe it.. to THE SEX" 020630 ... TalviFatin To you it is, not to me. Cant you see it in my eyes when I let you take me? Somehow I wish I werent as easy to convince. I cant stand talking to you anymore. You cant go two words without insinuating getting together that night. I hate you and want to hurt you...but still find myself wanting you and almost loving you. I cant stand you for what you've made me. Am I just a slave? I wont have it. You tell me that i'm not just sex, and that you want it because you havnt had it in a long time. Bullshit. The only way I can get you to come see me is if I agree to letting you have me. I'll mention it, and you'll be like "I'm on my way!"...What are you? The Dick Brigade? I know you're a Leo..but its no excuse. I cant do this anymore...as much as I wish I wanted to...I cant torture myself. You're not listening to my eyes anymore. 031005 ... kermits_perfect_rainbow_/^\ what kind of meaning does sex have anyway? (besides the definition smart asses) 040212 what's it to you? who go blather from