continuous_ache_ring unhinged i have a necklace that looks a lot like the ring i gave you. i wonder sometimes if you still have it, wear it. if you do, you should know that no matter how much you think you have ruined yourself, the spirit behind that gift still exists. 020328 ... continuous ache i still have it, i still wear it. not as often though because the stone is still loose from too much fidgetting, and i'm too broke to fix it. i just wish i could convince you to not take anything i do to heart, sweet girl. addicts are the biggest assholes. i've admitted my problem, but i've almost given up on fixing it. all i can do now is say.... i'm an asshole i'm a loser i'm a bad friend i am weak...... i didn't deserve you then, and i don't now. unless you're aching for disappointment, it is probably better to just forget about me cuz that's all i'm good for. i sincerely wouldn't blame you. i want you to be happy, and i know that i am completely incapable of making you anything but upset. but know that i will adore that ring and you to the grave. i swear it. [you too mollycule] 020329 ... unhinged friends don't give up amber maybe i can't fix the problem but that doesn't mean that a cup of coffee and night of bullshitting and cigarettes doesn't help brake up the monotony. 020401 ... silentbob i want to hug both of you 020401 ... Casey You are both beautiful people. 020403 ... Casey I tried e-mailing you both, but my e-mail has been cursed or something and it didn't send. :( 020403 ... continuous ache i love you, nicole. i just wish i hadn't fucked up my life so much. *sigh* next time you're near a phone, give me a call and we'll go annoy the waiters at denny's and throw sugar_packets at each other, yeah? bobby, i wish you didn't live so far away. :P maybe nicole and i will show up on your doorstep one day and force you to have a threesome with us or something. how's that sound to you two? casey, i don't even know what to say to that. it amazes me that anyone who has read anything that i've written here would think i was a beautiful person. thank you. maybe i'm not all the monster i imagine. 020404 ... unhinged i think the threesome with bobby sounds quite nice. it would be another entry for blather_experience2. i will call. maybe in the next half hour. ever since the night i kissed you i could never give up amber. ever ever. ps. we should go on a roadtrip to molest bobby this summer. 020404 ... Casey ohohoh, I've got some rope that you can have for Bobby's last molestation. And since he'll probably be in the town we both live in, then just ask him to come get it or you come get it from me or something. It's good quality rope, it might have a few stains on it, but he wont mind, they're all his stains anyway 020404 ... continuous ache :( i just tried emailing you casey, but i had the same problem. i hate Daemons. they suck. sounds like a great plan. 020404 ... unhinged feeling very sentimental today and three_words pulls this up. i can't help wondering if she's even still alive. and that is a very sad thought. 080729 what's it to you? who go blather from