summary ryro For a minute we had fun there in the beginning when I could love you because I did but that all changed as you spiraled and I fell numb and you landed more softly than you deserved You didn't die but didn't quiet recover and you looked at me but you should have shook me to wake me from the nightmare because I didn't and here we are at the end hopefully awake 050106 ... Pablo Neruda Night travel: black flame of sleep that snips the threads of the earth's grapes, punctual as a headlong train that would haul shadows and cold rocks, endlessly. Because of this, Love, tie me to a purer motion, to the constancy that beats in your chest with the wings of a swan underwater, so that our sleep might answer all the sky's starry questions with a single key, with a single door the shadows had closed. 050106 ... chocolatewalrus 1 we began as friends and we ended as friends what were we in the middle? 2 we are friends i liked you a lot but i came here and now you don't talk to me 3 i liked you but you like her and she likes you but not enough for sustainment i'm over it but the situation is strange 4 we were best friends but we stopped hanging out we still call each other best friends but we haven't been since ninth grade we don't tell each other anything i miss you 5 i met you at running camp i feel like i have known you for a million years we hang out all the time we are probably best friends but we have never really said it 6 you've been friends with my roommate for years i liked you when i met you but there is something about you that displeases me occassionally i have yet to put my finger on it but i close my eyes and breathe whenever i feel like screaming at you it happens only when we are around other people namely just one you are my other best friend we've conversed on this subject 7 you say i am your coolest friend from high school we never hung out that much in school but we hung out all the time every summer you make me laugh and smile i miss you but everytime i think about it, i always wonder what it is about me that you think is so cool 8 i live with you there are so many things i hate about you but i can't help but like you i love being with you but when i am not with you, i hate to think about when i have to be with you again i don't like that i feel like this i am a horrible person i am working on saying nicer things about you to people maybe i wasn't meant to live with people 9 you were my favorite person in high school you are still one of my favorite people i can tell you anything and be strange in my strange way at the same time we can be funny and serious and run and everything i can't imagine ever not being your friend i can't remember ever not being your friend, but there was a time 050507 what's it to you? who go blather from