i_just_wanna_let_go Mahayana: Zakah: of everything everyone every sensation this fucked up feeling within is just too much 2 sustain depression, suicide, mental illness runs through both sides of the familial tree heavily & i keep wondering what if, what if, what if i get worse... & i dont wanna find out the answers to all my questions i just wanna let go why cant my life just let go 011227 ... unhinged because one day you will wake up to sunshine and snowflakes, coldplay and smooth-hitting pipes, cute skirts and leather jackets, the fact that he's not going to pa and you might actually get to kiss his face... that for one sprightly millisecond of your constant infinity someone could make you more happy than you've ever been. cause even if your concious doesn't know it, your happiness instinct deep down inside the folds of your brain knows all this and won't let you shut down. i live for milliseconds. we all do. 011228 ... Trinity then just feckin' do it.. 011229 ... Mahayana: Zakah: ...of the way we connected ¿[is it truly a higher honor to be considered best friends |or| as individuals who share beyond]? [[or is that just some sort of consolation offering, 2 those of us/who really/ are everything you avoid in life]] 020101 ... damaged but you're holding on so tight that i can feel my blood vessels bursting 020301 ... yummyC I just wanna release to find the sky and not feel gravity claiming my soul. 020302 ... continuous ache i just want to let my grip on the world slide loose and fall right off the edge. i want to drown in the blood of my hollowed out heart. i want to sleep forever with your carelessness far behind me. 020303 ... Arwyn sometimes. Sometimes it just gets too hard. Sometimes I just can't do it all... and sometimes even you can't make it all better.. it's not your fault so don't apologize... I'm the one who's sorry 020303 ... Syrope but then what will be left to hold on to? 020304 ... Mahayana damn cant even do [that] anymore [theres nothing to hold onto] 020304 ... little wonder but everytime i try, every fucking time, it just comes right back to me. 020304 ... she ...when I'm doing 110 on the freeway, and it's raing, and the music finds its way to my soul, and the pressures of the world seem too big, and I realize that true happiness is so far away, and your face haunts my heart. I just wanna let go... Just let it all go... 020304 ... she raining, actually 020304 ... girl_jane But sometimes my heart doesn't listen to my thoughts. 020703 ... just mona I used to feel this way. constantly. but I have let go. moved on. found new things to be excited about. new people. 070725 what's it to you? who go blather from