dropping_the_ouchie_astrology amys astrology optimism Awareness is Death.... ahem, haha, but not for everyone, right? or, maybe not next time, right? so, i've dropped plenty of classes in my life, but it's taken me awhile to drop this one. as a self-birthday present, i might try to go a little further into what Jupiter and Saturn are supposed to mean, but it's starting to seem futile. it's not uninteresting, or really very kooky at all, but with me personally, and I think it has to start "personally" or be inherited or something, I had 3-4 really nagging questions which I still haven't answered. what I really seem to want to know is why would I be doing this? probably unanswerable... and as for the 3-4 sub-questions to that introduced by my study of astrology, I probably need to start by paying somebody who knows better to help me along. somebody with a better endorphin supply or without their Sun square the Nodes, wouldn't even care. it's a Blitz, enjoy the ride, you're pretty well entertained. you're not poor or miserable. why complain? i guess, without those nagging questions answered, or maybe just my life back on track again, studying astrology starts to seem like finding something symbolic and specific to complain over. some things I'm happy to know, like that my dad has a Sun-Mars-Uranus conjunction in Cancer and this is why he contradicts himself alot. or, say, why does Zach Braff show up in my dreams, well the composite shows that he's acting as a "good" brother. whatever that entails. or that the synastry between me and my brother seems to show me giving death threats and him ripping me off, while the composite looks a-ok. or, this friend that I had uncomfortableness with, well the composite has very tight Venus-Saturn. ok, right, no fun. dead friendship. truth is, I'd LOVE to see this person again, just to catch up. but HE senses the Venus-Saturn, so it's a no-go. it's not that astrology doesn't work, it's just too depressing sometimes! and if something not-so-depressing were to occur, you either do as much homework as you can (option A) or you promise not to look (orphesian option B) I think option B is the obvious answer. so, I guess when I have a problem, it certainly helps. it's a hire-a-friend or befriend yourself, sort of. otherwise, i'm starting to wonder, why bother. unless i feel like being very self conscious or vain. so, yeah, sure, maybe next time. who can care? hey, i tried, i saw, i didn't have the money. that's perfectly fine, i did what i could, i just didn't get that whole life-purpose thing figured out. astrology isn't the thing to make it less pointless. 080619 ... daf its a tool for human communication and understanding. what exactly are your questions? no fee. we have two here who have been studying awhile. my girl has been studying for over 25 years..myself since about '98. email if you like, or blathe it if you like...or forget the whole thing..pot's quicker. 080620 what's it to you? who go blather from