cycles_repeat mahayana {if} you let them 020413 ... unhinged yes i let them i could not let my anger overcome bury you where you belonged and the cycles repeated themselves i had predicted it but i could not go back on my word and you don't realize that do you? i forgave you because i had to i needed you and now i feel sorry for you because i know that never have you wanted love but control attention drugs and all those things you babbled to me long ago about knowing yourself dear, i know you better than anyone in this world i wanted to save you i needed you and still you don't call still you go looking for your attention control because you know you have none of that over me love controls everything and slowly you eat it away those special words just meaningless_conversation cycles_repeat your self-fulfilling prophecy 020413 ... kx21 M_error... 020415 ... kx21 M_error??? Q_As... 020415 ... god psychos repeat psychos repeat 020620 ... jonh attempted change only it never came a step in the right direction followed by a stumble backwards another step outward to regain balance a new position... the same as before how much of this i can take i dont know not alot more need a more permanent and secure path 030122 ... whitechocolatewalrus even if you don't let them 031203 ... a "point" the_cycle_of_seasons 041220 ... pSyche yes it repeats this endless cycle of stupidity. like clothes, tumbling in the dryer of time. I make a mistake I hurt you you hurt me back we drift away then come back and then another mistake is made repeating the cycle. The fabric of our love is being shredded then sewn together. One thing, my love, stitches are not meant to last these cycles repeat and the seams tear at each heartbeat 041220 ... known rabbit hater the_ironic_cycle 041221 ... Piso Mojado i am an agitated mind i am an addicted mind addicted to emotions addicted to the comfort i pretend to create for myself. this shell this is bad patterns i've created for myself i am living in the world of my creation- and this freedom to choose becomes my prison escape is not escape realize that there are no bars 050222 ... Piso Mojado everything adds up 050222 ... Piso Mojado JUST STOP written on my hand is supposed to help provide impetus but here i am things change, nothing changes i am patterns and habits and it grows and repeats 050222 ... hsg Still, i_c the only perpetual_motion_machine as the universe. There seems to be this pervasive need for all the parts to communicate. Psyche_alls repeat becoming less tolerable until there is commun i_c ation & FUNctionality between smaller and larger parts. Connectivity_Flowers on the other_side_of_t_i'me often I'm learning that once a cycle is fully recognized as fruitless it is seen as a lesson. That life_cycle doesn't have to be lived again. Thosemotions are consolidated into inform ation. These B lessons of one' soul_vocabulary. Later lives have an accelerated information base. Each grain of sand is a different character. It's not fun starting_over_as_sand learning to pay_attention paying full experience. It is necessary though if we forget instruction: First we pay_attention that cycle lesson ends, then we play_at_attention. Happi necessar ily is the only sustaina_B_lesson 090910 ... hsg * play_at_tension (-:-) 090910 ... In_Bloom Push Play Pull Steady as we go now 090914 ... & change_is_the_only_constant_in_the_universe 090914 what's it to you? who go blather from