you_know_me peyton I actually cried when I went back and read all of her posts. Tears roll down my face even now. I cannot say I've seen such a tragic figure before. I don't know her, but I can piece together more of the traumatic parts of her life. I cannot stop crying when I think about it all together. I want to say to you, you know me.. Dear God, I'm so sorry.. I wish I could take some of your pain for a minute, like Hercules relieving Atlas. 010119 ... silentbob who 010119 ... peyton you_know_me It's a name someone posts under. 010119 ... you know me ... 010120 ... you know me peyton, thank you- i don't need anyone to help lift the burden anymore- it just twinges sometimes, pinching at my heart, tugging at my memory, and it comes flooding back- but when it does, i have my husband, i have his arms to hold me- i have his shoulder to cry on- and even if he's not there i can pray- but thank you for listening- i wondered if anyone had even heard my whisperings- well, except to taunt my faith in God- but thank you- 010121 ... peyton How could I not hear you? You were screaming.. Please continue.. just remember to breathe. 010127 ... silentbob yeah, sure you do i'm that guy in the back of your eyes the one who always loved you and you never even knew the one who wrote all those poems about you how could you not know me 010421 ... Aimee actually... most of you don't... 010729 ... mulder i do though... heeheehee 010729 ... unhinged i'm the little girl hiding behind the door to the closet i had been locked in for months trying to find away back inside hoping to concentrate on starvation and sensory deprivation rather than this you_know_me i'm the body they carried away in the ambulance this morning while all the neighbors stood outside whispering they say it was suicide you_know_me i'm the girl with the red razor marks on the inside of her left wrist because sometimes it's fun to make yourself bleed just to make sure you are still alive funny i could swear that i'm dead because she_still_makes_me_tremble all the anger in my head you_know_me i'm the crazy homeless lady in dennys with schizoprenia that sits in there all night in the winter cause it's so cold scrounging up money for all night coffee and laughing cryptically at nothing you_know_me i'm the little girl that cried for days when alton's dog got run over by a car you_know_me kurt would eat me cause i'm black 011208 what's it to you? who go blather from