telling_the_truth PrincessParanoia i don't really know what to put this under, but i wanna say it anyway, even though it sounds kinda stupid. in my art class, we made these fabric projects, and mine was like a stained glass window with a bleeding heart, except in fabric, and everyone liked it. and then we had to write statements about them, which in itself is stupid but that's not the point, and so i wrote in mine what the fabric piece was actually about, which had a lot to do with depressing stuff and who i really am, instead of the bullshit i usually write in them. and then because i wrote the truth for once, i got myself an appointment with a psychiatrist. this really discourages me from telling the truth about a lot of stuff, because many times when i do, i just get myself in trouble. so i shut up or lie about stuff, just because it's easier. and then i think that that's stupid, and i should just tell the truth, because i don't really care what they think, i just don't like sitting with a counselor for an hour lieing to them. and then i think i'm being fucked up about this and it doesn't matter at all. so i guess what i'm asking is, is it better to tell the truth about stuff like how you feel and then get yourself into trouble about it, but at least know you said what you felt, or to just lie or make stuff up but not get into trouble? 040508 ... PrincessParanoia man i sound so stupid in that. 040508 ... Deomis No, you don't sound stupid. What a tough question though. I'd have to say, go whith the truth. I mean, honestly, what can they, REALLY do to you. Nothing. You know what you would really rather do, and I believe, that regardless of the advice anyone here might give, you are going to make your own decision. In the end, it comes down to "what do YOU want to do?" I can bear to sit next to some shrink for a while, they can't make me talk about anything. I don't know how you feel about that. So there. Maybe this helped, maybe it didn't. Either way, you still face a choice. One which YOU must decide upon. 040508 ... cube Princess; I took a minute to read all of your postings. The impression left is that you have a (profound?) lack of self confidence. This is often the case with those just starting out on life's journey and may be no great cause for alarm. My advise to you (remembering that free advise is worth exactly what you paid for it) is to find out what it is you are good at, rather than concerning yourself with the 'why not' of it all. Take hold of those talents you possess and leverage yourself thereby. Before too long, the 'why nots' will be memories and you will find yourself (gratefully) beyond the most dangerous shoals. As to telling the truth... "Never apologize for showing feeling. When you do so, you apologize for truth" Benjamin Disraeli (1804 - 1881) ³ 040508 ... kx21 The_M_Reversal of Moment_of_Truth? 040508 ... PrincessParanoia thanks. 040513 ... PrincessParanoia and i do have very little confidence. i'm younger than most people here, i think. so if i sound childish, it's because i'm not that old. 040513 what's it to you? who go blather from