sensical_nonsense no reason mmmmm i can't do it noooooooo don't make me do it make it stop please make it start please make something start i need this confusion i need clarity i hate this confusion go away it's dreary i'm so tired fuck all his shit. and i need you and i don't need you and i don't know why but i can never figure anything out or anyone out and i'm so tired and full and delirious and empty oh so empty i need you, this, it. and there's so much music and i can't feel it and there's too much, there's always too much, and i don't have it and maybe i don't always need it and i'm sorry i'm sorry i wish i did, i don't understand. you need it it's all there for you it's everything you know that why don't you know what you want why don't you know anything why can't i figure this out and i don't think i ever want to stop typing and i think i think i think this will temporarily stop. this will never stop. 021113 ... no reason i meant "fuck all this shit." not his shit. 021113 ... no reason it would be sort of ironic, if it was true. 021113 ... hmmm guess who but who the fuck knows? 021113 ... never any reason certainly not me. 021113 ... yes i do. i like this blathe. 021113 ... and i thank you. yes i do. 021113 ... and i also like it 021113 ... no reason so now i think i'm just going to go on and whenever i don't know what i'm going to say i start with so, don't i? so yeah and then i contiunes actually continue but i left it there cuz it looketh funny. looketh tooketh smooketh. i mentioned a club to a friend on msn but my typo said blub. so heeee now we're gonna go blubbling except no. ilikethat. delightful insightful yeah i wish nonsense. actually i don't really wish. nonsense should be allowed to be whatever it feels like it should be, as i think it is. i feel just the perfect amount of anti-sobriety in me. i feel very responsible and in control at the moment or at least more than usual and i like it, maybe anti-sobriety is the answer. tell it to the birds..um what the fuck? hah. drunken birds...they'd crash into glass even more than usual, and fly all funny. my special jet is all pink and sparkly and it took us home, just like any loyal sparkly jet, or even any special kind of jet, hopefully would. in any case, in any case c a s e CaSe it should be brief. in any brief it should be case...hmm ok smoo. silly sillily silllililily how many l's could your tongue say before getting tired and confused? i don't think i'm gonna test it out right now because it would cause more than a little confusion among people and i don't think i'd be willing to explain. plethoras of meanings when a chimera is involved or when one is involved in one and i really think that's all it is, just a ChImeRa chiMERa c h i m e r a 021214 ... morphine. sensical, no. shes so happy shes so fucking bright all the time i dont know how to keep up with her to make it all seem ok or something or stupid or me or what what what i cant think now, yeeeeees? 021214 ... no reason! no i WON'T let you be the defining voice! emotional range versatility imaginativity creativity whatever the hell you don't have maybe you're lucky or maybe you have been or maybe you will be but now you're not! now you're not oh no no no because we're coming in unstoppable saviours of something fun and true something that will make everyone a little bit crazier freer free free FREE think about it and try to shut up if you know what's good for you 041203 ... u24 what is produced by a nonsense_machine? 050128 ... .nom nonsensical_nonsense? 050128 what's it to you? who go blather from