do_you_ever_make_yourself_cry girl_jane Sometimes I think of how much I miss my grandparents. Sometimes I think of what would happen if somebody I loved died. Sometimes I wonder who would come to my funeral if I died. Sometimes I think of people and pets that have died. Sometimes I think of what that father did to his son. Sometimes I think of those animals I didn't mean to hit with my car. Sometimes I think of the geese who've lost their mates. Sometimes I think of what we could have been. Sometimes I think of... Sometimes I wonder why I think of things that make me cry. And sometimes, I just smile through it. 021129 ... Suicide Snowman Every fuckin' day. I look outside, and see things that are beautiful, but are now dying as winter approaches steadily. I look at that and cry cause I know how they feel, and I know how painful winter is... 021129 ... p2 your_skin_makes_me_cry 021130 ... screwing for virginity i think about how i have screwed myself over. i think about how this world is going to hell. i think about all those people killed for no reason. i think about how manny people have failed in life long persuits. i think about how pointless life seems. i think about how if you choose the wrong religion your afterlife is fucked no matter what. i think about people and animals out in the cold rain. i think about the futility of everything. but for some reason, that makes me smile 021201 ... megan a lot actually.. going through the what-ifs in my head just as everyone else does... but coming through knowing that it will be all right in the end, and if it's not all right, then it's not the end. 021202 ... unhinged tears are a constant ball in my throat. usually i can swallow them and pretend. sometimes, the ball gets so heavy that i don't want to carry it anymore so i listen to ivet or smashing_pumpkins or coldplay and it is easier to cry. sometimes i turn them on when i am already crying to cover up the ugly sounds of my crying. most often than not there are tears but no sounds. silent_tears hurt the most. sometimes i cannot contain my sobs and i feel like i am ripping and tearing into a million pieces. the last time i really cried, i felt like my heart had finally been broken. i haven't felt the same ever since. thank you so much for your mind_fuck. it has been well documented and catalogued. ever since then, i feel tears welling to my eyes almost constantly. i think i need a teddy bear. 021202 ... just_inflate some times i think of what im not doing where im not going and then i realize im the only one who can make me cry. 021204 ... x yes 021204 ... eklektic when i've had a bad day, and foreboding news it told to me, and i go home, turn on the tv and Dashboard Confessional Unplugged just came on. 021205 ... me all the time 021205 ... Kate I totally made myself almost cry yesterday too, Tracee--Mr. Betchel either forced to leave or some other calamity... the thought of that was absolutely unbearable and maddening. Maddenning of censorship and denying the truth. I was riled and worried and tired. 021206 ... endless desire yes 031226 ... sometimes_she says, "pass the onions, please." 031228 what's it to you? who go blather from