beneath_the_skin
sabbie in a whimsical mood beneath my skin
live millions of demons.

little tiny demons of red and purple
long quick fingered demons
scratchy clawed demons
evil grinning demons
running up and down.
long flowing haired demons
pointy faced demons
sharp nosed demons
all crawling around
beneath my skin

i am teeming with millions of demons
all with vivid thoughts of their own
all whispering whispering whispering,
the wind in the willows does not have this much to say
the wind is the wrong colour, anyway.

teeth clacking
claws clacking
bones cracking
as they worm their way in.

i am bloated with millions of demons
they slide down my veins
sleep in my muscles
feast in my stomach
and fuck in my mouth
they tangle my hair when i am sleeping
they twist my pubes when i am awake
they cause sharp pains across my skin
they gnaw at my bones and lap at my tears

picutre them not as cute little demons
picture them not as fuzzy little demons
these arnt the type that people keep as pets

the demons i have arnt smiling
theyre snarling
theyre greedy and grasping
they kill each other every day
every day more demons die beneath my skin.
demon bodies rotting beneath my skin
demon souls fighting for possession
demon armies waging demon wars
beneath my skin.

demon parents eat their demon children
demon parents shit out the remains
beneath my skin.

demons fuck each other
demons are born
demons sweat
demons piss
demons die
demons decay
and demons fuck the rotting remains
beneath my skin.


if you come close enough to my skin
you can see these truths.
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phil more skin 020522
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werewolf origins longing to escape, instincts longing to become novel one more time. 020522
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9.0 This is someone else's story
Someone that I never knew
This is someone else's body.
Am I getting through to you?
If you peel away the armor
is something underneath?
If you look below
for hidden treasure
underneath another layer
Are you hiding underneath the skin?

If you peel away the skin
is there anybody there?
If you peel away the skin
is there anybody there?
If you peel away the armor
is it too late to begin?
Is there anybody hiding
if you peel away the skin?

Now a spark has passed between us now
A mometary recognition
Something lost and something gained
And something shared that feels strange
Something cold that will not go away

There's a heart as cold as ice
In a vault that's made of stone
Over years the wall got higher
Over the years the walls have grown

Is there anybody in there
in this self inflicted tomb?
If you peel away the layers
is there someone in this room?
If you peel away the skin,
if you peel away the skin

This is someone else's story
Someone that I never knew
This is someone else's body
Am I getting through to you?
020522
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9.0 D. Elfman / Oingo Boingo, 1989 020522
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literally bethany i know a person who's seen under my skin
and remembers it
my lil sister's best friend's mother
she visited me the day after and told me what my insides looked like, casually
and i still feel weird that she knows what i look like under my skin
020522
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Broken_Soul Sadness, heartbreak, disappointment, frustration. All of these things build inside me to the point of explosion because I don’t know how to let them out one by one in a healthy way. They force their way out all at once. It looks like anger, but it is not. 240114
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