i_haven't_been notme lately, more than lately i haven't been very good for conversation all i want to talk about is decoherence and michigan it drives people crazy so then i don't talk at all a few words here and there every few hours a word or two sometimes i think i could stop talking altogether like that game i used to play when i was a child 040212 ... notme listening enough to other hearts it's no wonder i'm a bore 040212 ... notme feeling very well 040212 ... notme to a big city in a long time my sister showed me her tiny pink cell phone when she was here almost two months ago and i'm still laughing at the fact that i hadn't seen one in years and years i didn't even know they came that small that's how weird i am, i don't talk much unless i've got an obesession to chew and then i'm just talking to air i rarely use a phone, i don't care the world must be having a good time my floor is cement and cold think i'll go rip a chunck of bread off the big round onion loaf breakfast_for_idiots like me who can barely wake up or get out of bed let alone visit a house before it's sold 040212 ... notme and no i can't spell or write how i truly feel so i might as well bugger off 040212 ... Just a thought honest. I'm sorry(i'm sure you've heard that before) but i mean it (and i'm sure you've heard that before) and i will be honest with you from now on. Hard lies are easiest to tell if you beleive them yourself. 040908 ... Christopher Burks very happy lately, in fact, I've been quite depressed. I don't smile much anymore and I stay in my room listening to classical music while hiding from the real world which is the truth. I am trying to live a lie. I long, yearn, want to be happy. I want to embrace each day and worship it and be joyful and happy. It seems the day shall never come where I could feel true happiness or be at peace. It seems as if joy has not the oddasity to come back to me. I am much like an artist without a pencil, a computer without it's moniter, a solar system without it's sun... I am only 12 years of age and I don't understand how to be very happy anymore. 050521 ... tombe_seul myself? 050522 what's it to you? who go blather from