anti_freeze girl_jane I drove I wasn’t sure where I was going All I knew was I was driving Driving past snow covered fields that reminded me Of cookies ‘n’ cream ice cream Staring out through frost framed windshield and windows Staring at the candy coated white trees Frozen sold and the branches Weighed down Heavy like my thoughts My obese thoughts of you Blubbering in my mind and Controlling my head The weight pushing my eyes to watch the ground when I Walked now at my destination Sludging through the snow Being careful to make my own Prints instead of walking in Somebody else’s I want the snow to Fall into my shoes I wanted the cold and wet and Sick I wonder if I made my own prints In your thoughts Or if I just reminded you of another Girl as I walked on a path already Worn in your head I put my hands in my pockets A discovery A penny The penny you gave me the other day I took it out and held it in my now Sweaty palm I opened my hand once I was Safely inside I didn’t want to drop the Refound treasure I examined it Old and worn The year on it-1985 The year of my birth An interesting coincidence Throughout the day I kept my hand in my pocket Rubbing the penny between my thumb and fore finger A token Again driving This time staring at stars The three stars of Orion’s belt Lined up as if on a string Then I imagined us Spinning circles until we had all the Stars pulled from the sky by Their strings and wrapped around Our bodies The steering wheel is so cold My heater’s breaking down again I’ll add anti-freeze later and I’ll Have warmth again Why can’t I add anti-freeze to me I’ve not been myself lately I’ve been cold and bitter Unusually depressed and down Maybe it’d the cold virus that’s settled In my sinuses Maybe it’s the lack of anti-freeze In the form of kisses and hands I lie awake at night Fighting the codeine cough medicine And I wait impatiently for the Summer Hopefully, in the summer, I’ll be Okay without the anti-freeze 020208 ... girl_jane *correction towards the top it says frozen sold... it should be frozen solid...I missed the 'i' 020208 ... farmfish hell yeah. i 'member this one. nice work. "own prints- thoughts- path already worn in your head." the desire, the longing, the dreaming, the lonliness, the cold...it's intimate. 020209 ... girl_jane thanks... 020210 ... girl_jane It's odd how blathes just get deleted off your list...well-not so much odd as just plain poo-ey... 030921 ... Shinnokxz keep that cat away from the anti-freeze... tis sugar to her 061207 what's it to you? who go blather from