and_then_you_left endless deisre and i ran out the door but i didn't know which corner you had turned. and then i felt like shit. 030915 ... endless desire . 030915 ... imposter and I didn't know what to do with myself, because I love you so, so much. 030915 ... Death of a Rose without even a glance backward 031018 ... TalviFatin ...abandoning me in utter disbelief. You left your pheromones and sweet masculine scent behind on my pillows and sheets...making me pine for you when I lay in my bed. The absolute worst place. Your gender nectar still lingers between the layers...and my entire being weeps for you to turn around and come back...just to lazy the day away in bed with me. A weak goodbye...promising to see me tomorrow...but I know you wont come around...and it kills me. 031018 ... nom and i couldn't stop the pain 031018 ... djstar "no you didn't just leave, i actually kicked you out" -ani you were always leaving me and then we got together and i was restless and squirming to be released from your tiresome and controlling hold i loved you, yes but you made it too hard. we connect in a way i will never have with anyone else... subtract the anger and violence, and it would've been perfect. i loved wrestling with you and then you left 040929 ... magicforest my god, now I am blathing here i have come full circle to where you were oh endless 040929 ... mourninglight "I'll call you" seems I don't know what honesty looks like anymore. 040929 ... magicforest i know i know 040929 ... rage and the magic ended 051013 ... pete and i turned away smiling 051013 ... falling_alone and i wasnt supposed to feel this way i wasnt supposed to be attached everything was meant to stay meaningless but you brought her with you and used me to guide you along the way now i'm here complaining because emotions have become more complicated than i would have liked. 051013 ... icy and i need to let you go and you have a lot to work on and i need to get on with my life but i keep thinking of you but you intrude into my dreams but i need to let it go but it's so different without you so life goes on without you so i'm learning to adjust to all this so you don't care anymore - you forget me so my life is once again mine - mine alone and_then_you_left and i learned how better i am without you 051013 ... icy and i learned how better i am without you and i forgot that hard-won lesson and i jumped in again, feet first and this time i really fucked up but i know it can be fixed but i can't do it on my own... but you say you don't care anymore but i didn't want to give up so i have to find myself again so i have to be strong on my own so you meant you don't care about me so i understand what you refuse to say and i learned how better i am without you and i have yet to learn to let you go 201127 ... unhinged amen_omen 201128 what's it to you? who go blather from