thoughts_exposed monadh is as monadh does the film we keep stored but never seem to get developed semi-waking from sleep realizing you are speaking outloud 010809 ... unhinged everytime you hug me and make that funny little noise i appreciate it so much more. i missed you frank. those crooked teeth trapped in that slanted grin, you reclining against the side of the semi bathing in the sun. aaahhh our bathing beauties. it took me awhile to dredge it up but that look of recognition in your eyes when i told you face to face that i meant what i said still makes me happy days later. you've got such a sweet way about you when you forget to act like a bad ass. i wish every morning that you woke up i could be there to hug you so that you could start every day with that smile. 010809 ... monadh i was talking in my sleep again trying to listen to you trying to remain with you walking away with the clouds in my hands 010907 ... notme i feel like crawling under a rock 031019 ... monadh i tried to keep it i couldn't find what i had found there are these worlds other places i see in the space a room that occupies me fit the box make it gift to you the present key the music blend the mix turn tide the table 031120 ... mon uow blather 050407 ... nom) words leave me naked 051007 ... nom) covered in silence 051007 ... mos i am of the kind to be inflicted by something called love. i do not know her, that is i have never touched her. but i have head her speak and i know her face i know her taunting eyes and mocking smile. it has not been that long since we first spoke and though the distance is overwhelming we love each other everyday in less conventional ways powered by words and laughter and the occasional "eu?" she is always on my mind now provoking fire in the belly from afar. i am afraid of time and time and time again, that we have to wait until our flesh collides. 051007 what's it to you? who go blather from