jazz_man Rhin Dear Jazz Man/Ice Fisherman, My comments under the topic 'overwhelmed', were very cruel, and I publically apologize for saying them. My intentions were not to hurt you, and I could never resent you. I think what I meant to say was, that I have taken your feelings of being overwhelmed, to mean that you are giving up. I do understand that you are so very busy in your studio, composing the music that puts me to sleep every night, and playing so often in the clubs, where I think of you often, with eyes closed, just feeling the music take hold of you... You are the most amazing, sensual man that I have ever known. You are so very caring, and the only one who makes sure that I eat, when I forget. You are the one who continues to inspire me to create the graphics that I do, and you remain my most supportive fan. In retrospect, you have every right to feel overwhelmed. However, I will not apologize for being so in love with you! You will stay upon that pedestal where I have so lovingly placed you. More than anything darling, I just need some answers, and some honesty, even if it hurts. You say things can't stay the same...what you mean is, I can't continue to push you. I never intended to push you away. You do make me happy baby, and no one knows that better than me. I just want you to be in my life. So, if that means that you set the pace, then so be it. You have always been there for me, and now it is my turn to just be there for you, to give you the space that you need, shower you with my love, and inspire you when you need it. So many tears are streaming down my face, I can't even see the monitor in front of me. I just can't imagine not hearing your voice again! What I can't imagine, even more, is not being in love with you... Please carry my heart in your pocket, because I will never, ever forget to carry yours... You Love Me You smile through tears for me, and walk on the breeze with me. You gather leaves to make a bed for me, and when I can't sleep you sing to me. You stand guard over my soul to shelter me, and I know this because you kill tigers for me. You kneel down onto the ice to feed me, and give your breath freely to warm me. You gaze into the water when you want to see me, and touch yourself when you need to feel me. You show me God's breath as you hold me, and when our soul's dance as one, I know that you love me. a.k.a. Toady/The Ice Fisherman's Lady 001128 ... iron sausage first prize. 001128 ... Rhin Rhin: It's a given! Dan: It's a fact! Danny, I received your letter. Thank you for not running away, and thank you for not letting me. It's true...that's just the way it is with us. It's the way it has always been, and will always be. 010103 what's it to you? who go blather from