i_am_thinking nomme of what to wear i'm choosing my every disguise i want to surprise with a smile i_want_you_to 030819 ... randomly recent i_am_thinking, too. ! 040124 ... jane i am thinking. i think i_am_waiting. i_wait. 040124 ... Syrope that maybe the reason my hair is so pretty today is you...maybe you should run your fingers through it more often :) i need to do laundry, so sitting here at work in my snakeskin pants and handcuffs sweatshirt, i really don't understand how i could feel pretty today but i do...my hair is only pretty on such rare occasions that it covers all other insecurities. and even though i'm traditionally into the rougher play, i'm definitely falling for the way you touch me...gentle, like i might break. because i might. i'm just that fragile right now. but how do you always know what i need? you didn't even know i was single again. part of me was insulted that you thought i'd be coming to you so often and with such meanings in my eyes if i were dating someone, but the other part of me was too busy being thrilled at how you seemed to perk up and pull me to you more eagerly. i have to stop thinking so much. 040125 ... white_wave being a bit vain that the reason my hair is so pretty today is the warm dry weather. humidity hates me! and it wants to scare me by sending each strand of my hair in a different direction. 040311 ... notme it's so easy to lose 040312 ... notme i don't know what i was thinking 040312 ... notme it's so easy to run so easy to lose nothing_is dangerous 040312 ... notme i_am_sinking 040312 ... notme thinking_i 040312 ... squint That I want blather to disappear suddenly and forever. 040313 ... bite_me so many secrets written in these soft blue letters i made the biggest mistake of my life a few days ago i showed someone blather and i regret that so bitterly because they will undoubtedly read some of my posts and some of my posts are about them i want the anonymity back! 040314 ... peepers is he going to be on, early in the morning, to check mail? i hope so because i miss him and, i swear, i might've passed him yesterday, saturday afternoon. that shit's screwed up. AHHHhh!!!1 NO ONE UNDERSTANDS ME BUT HE DOES!!1 I'M FUCKING LOSGSING IT!!!1 I WALKED FROM MY HOUSE ALL THE WAY TO HIS YESTERDAY AND WALKED ALL THE WAY BACK! I WALKED,LIKE, FIVE MILES OR MORE..I CUT THE BACK OF MY FEET AND WAS OGLED BY MIDDLE-AGED MEN (WHAT THE FUCK? AM I YOUR JAILBAIT TO LOOK AT WHEN YOU WANT TO?) AS A RESULT OF IT. AT LEAST I GOT A GLASS OUT OF IT -- I NEEDED ONE. i went to some korean-owned 99c-and-up place in his neighborhoo.d sighh 040314 ... person i am thinking that if i had a life i wouldn't be typing this right now.=P 040708 what's it to you? who go blather from