and_that_is_that Ouroboros I live in a wood and plastic tarp structure in the backyard of a medium-sized house that houses 20+ people. In los angeles. Around 4pm the sun hits the structure, and I pull the blanket/door up and sit in the sunlight. Early in the morning birds chirp in the tree overhead. Late at night, some small creature (cat? rat?) makes loud footsteps on my plastic-tarp roof. Housemates are fairly clean and harmless and at any hour of the day, somebody is taking rips off the bong. Tonight i came come to find everyone had made fried chicken and were digesting over Pulp Fiction. I declined offers of chicken and peas- I had just had a delightful meal alone with a PNW beer and smal pieces of raw fish. I don't know about anything anymore- I can't judge- just continue being. I am lying in my bed, listening to itunes amient radio and typing this. It was nice to sip some ale and get my mind and pen lubricated. I miss writing. The wall above my bed is connected to another person's structure- which is more than slightly annoying- what's the point in having my own space if I can't have a little one-on-one time with myself, some erotic stories, and my hand, without feeling paranoid and wondering if i'm making sounds that i'm not aware i'm making... I drove back from the LA county museum of art their evening, listening to joanna newsom- imagining what it would be like to write and write and write and have it all come together as a 12 minute song. I hope to write like that someday. But now my not-quite roomate has crawled into bed and i am aware of how loud my typing is and that is that is that 070529 ... Ouroboros (update-- i hear a girl's voice. time for headphones) 070529 ... unhinged anger makes me say and do stupid things 070529 ... look at yourself join a screaming group then.... don't take it out on the weong people.. it will just make it worse. go in a field on your own and scream until you have no voice left. stop eating that comfort food crap too, it's eye wool. 070530 ... unhinged i internalize most of it, which is also not good, but i do try really hard not to take it out on others. sometimes there's just so much of it i can't contain it all. 070530 ... unhinged blather is my screaming group 070530 ... Ouroboros i am what i am 070628 ... :-) hhhhhmmmmmm JAM ? 070628 what's it to you? who go blather from