alone_awake Photophobe Arrive home. The house is quiet. Just the breathing. Lonely, stare at the carpet. Hold the phone. Been throught the numbers for the seventh time, but nobody is awake. I feel like pouring my heart out to strangers. But thats what crazy people do. Is anybody listening. I can't hear me. I can shout, but can you hear me? Can you? Is anybody listening? Emptiness. Guitars and computer games won't fill it up. Need human contact. Stare at the phone. Been through tthe numbers for the eighth time. But who could care right now? I feel like pouring my heart out to strangers. But thats what crazy people do. Is anybody listening. I can't hear me. I can shout, but can you hear me? Can you? Is anybody listening? 010617 ... carbonface i'm listening but far too self-righteous and advanced and full of myself to relate to your banality. plus i just popped open a can of anger so i don't think i should talk to or listen to anyone for awhile. 010617 ... birdmad empty bottles and black ants and ashes 010617 ... ... Yet still you post... :) 010620 ... kerry hah, insomnia, how ironic, i have it right now. and it SUCKS. everyone else is asleep i hear them snoring AAAA someone please make some noise, i wish somebody else could be awake... it helps me sleep. 011210 ... whoknows and wishing someone was here with me 011210 ... hey now! either that or dreaming im with you. those are bad dreams, and yet so good. 011210 ... ilovepatsajak nervous stomach and my day starts in 3 minutes, but i hope it lingers 011210 ... ClairE panic a moment grab the edge of a table not even time for a concerned woman to ask if you're okay because you choke it down. 011211 ... the indulgent ascetic "lying all alone and restless sleepless unable to focus" 011211 ... Mahayana together_asleep [alone_awake] 020614 ... god stoned_alone 020622 ... littleidiot alone, and never been so awake ever before. 021130 ... no reason alone_awake_again 050618 ... thorn still awake, still lonely. i can't call anyone or go anywhere, and no one's online. there is one boy i want to talk to . but he won't get online, and i don't know his phone number. i'm getting dangerously close to becoming addicted to talking to him. i'm worried about that. but i still need to talk to him. i hate feeling like this. 050619 ... .fallen story of my life... alone.... awake 050620 ... misstree like something else is holding its breath waiting for me to come around its corner 050702 ... pete usually my state afterwork.. now though i'm alone and awake (bunny's eating some treats, so i'm not technically alone) and thinking, smiling, wanting to dream, wanting to say hello, but not in a dream.. soon... 050702 what's it to you? who go blather from