absence_makes_the_heart_grow_cold jennifer if messages are for returning then why don't you return mine? if you no longer love me please tell me I don't want to hear it but I have to I have to hear those words "I don't want you" I have to hear them I know it's the truth but I still need to hear it so maybe my heart will listen 000527 ... silentbob We've been together for damn near 5 months. ive seen her about 5% of that time. i think i'm getting sick of this. i dont want to be this way anymore. ghastly gasp! im unhappy. how could it be?? 000913 ... jennifer hold_on 000913 ... boy to what? 000913 ... Rasputine{Vermelha} One letter just arriving Soulless and meaningless I know it is you who types Yet the rivers that flow through me Cannot consume those words Cannot keep them marked in their rocks And realise how they are How they were meant to them From the one who once swam across their waters I never meant any harm But the words do not seem to fit Cannot appear to come from those fingers That were once entangled in mine They feel so hollow Like the trunk of a dead tree Screaming silently at the birds The birds who do not heed to help it I lie awake in this cold marble And watch my thoughts flee from mind As inconsiderate butterflies Mocking my emptiness with their depth Interrogating me in such torturing ordeal Is it worth it? Does your heart beat still when you talk Or is it numbed by my existence? Do you still see? Are your eyes blindfolded and key locked? Yes. I am blind I am moribund And yes. It is definitely worth it. 000914 ... chance one has to wonder... 000914 ... Zoe when i'm with you i'm so happy, we're so much in love. but when we're apart i sometimes forget about you. it scares me that just because we don't see each other i can forget the one i want to spend the rest of my life with. today you told me that you will be going to basic training soon, for four months, after that i'll be going to england for five. you said that you didn't know if we could make it, that it was a long time not to see each other. of course i had to tell you that no matter what we'd get through it, but will we? i don't know. i do love you though, and i always will, even if we can't stay together while we're so far apart. 050328 ... confident before i told you i was sick to think about any other man. They are such pigs. I love people. I love myself. You are people. and you are me. and i would never hurt myself. 050328 what's it to you? who go blather from